Merry Christmas

Jesus didn't have blond hair and blue eyes.

Mary technically wasn't married when she first got pregnant with Jesus.

Jesus had longish hair and probably didn't shower very often.

Jesus shunned materialistic values and helped those less fortunate then him.


Whos the party of Jesus now motherfuckers? hint: Its not the GOP.


You know there are always bands your relatives dont want you to like, and then the bands they seem to want you to like. I got 3 Pearl Jam cds, but one of them had no disc in it which i thought was really funny, but my Mom thought it was like a sign of the Apocalypse.

On the other hand i didn't get the 3 legged doggy cd (AIC self titled).

My brother goes ballistic over gifts, he always bitches about my dad not getting him enough gifts. Giving gifts is supposed to be fun for Gods sake. I mean my brother never gives anyone anything.
So I think my little cousin who im not going to name even though no one reads this is now the officially most annoying, because the former most annoying matured and is now un-annoying and actually kind of funny. But I was with the older cousins (older being like ten instead of like five) and they kept trying to get rid of the little one and I was like "you guys did that to me, that is my life story" and they kept going "can you see if dinner is ready?" to the little one, which i never thought to do. Then they asked my moms boyfriends kids when they joined the family which typically your not supposed to ask.

I also got a new camera and it has a baby setting, like for taking pictures of baby's haha.

My brother got an 8gb ipod and I have a 4gb, that shouldn't upset me but it does because he dosn't even listen to music. He also deleted the songs my moms boyfriend put on it which pissed me off because i wanted to put "anouther brick in the wall" in my itunes.

Good night for now rodents

How Fall Out Boy/Fuled by Ramen type bands ruined the definition of alternative part one

Middle School aged girls in abercrombie shirts sitting in the balcony, high school freshmen wearing clip on bows in their hair in the “mosh pit”. This isn’t a Britney Spears concert, It’s a Fall Out Boy, (supposedly an “alternative” band) concert.

You cant mosh to pop music, nor can you claim shopping at hot topic makes you individual, but try telling this to 12 year old girls who claim to be “really alternative” and “listen to really deep music.” How do I know? I was one of them, just not to the same existent. What I’m describing is my first concert, although I didn’t get the real experience because of the commercialization of the band.

Rewind to 1992, where if these 12 year old girls were generation Xers. They’d be in flannel shirts and ripped jeans, at a Nirvana show, and as Cobain looks down at his audience he thinks to himself “what the hell have I done.” Of course when Pete Wentz looks at his audience made up of mostly 10-15 year old girls in his audience, he probably thinks “oh this is the age were parents buy there kids anything.” Maybe he really thinks he’s a real artist, but his record label knows he’s not.

This isn’t a diss on major label bands, nor is it a diss on naïve 12 year old girls. It’s a diss on modern “rock” music. Other then a few original indie acts (Bright Eyes), bands from better eras in music still going (R.E.M, Pearl Jam, Red Hot Chili Peppers) or a few good mainstream rock acts (Foo Fighters) modern music pretty much sucks. Fall Out Boy, Panic at the Disco, Metro Station, etc. all sound the same. All put more effort into their hair and makeup (yes they are dudes) then their music. Remind you of anything earlier?....

Yes I am associating Hair Metal with Pop “Punk”. The biggest difference is hair bands where not as fond of pretending to be sensitive or artistic as modern Pop “Punk” bands are. So I am actually, to some extent, suggesting that hair metal is more real then Pop “punk”.

How do we know Pop “punk” isn’t real? It’s not original, they all sound the same.

Metro Station


Plain White Tees



Cobra Starshit *cough* Ship sorry


Now what a fucking original batch of bands we have there.


Compare that to grunge bands, all have a unique sound

Pearl Jam


Alice In Chains


Nirvana


Screaming Trees


and lets go back to hair bands, all sound the same, but have oddly amusing videos…(some of these are NSFW)

Warrant

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48odQVIZKjI

(click on link, couldn’t find one with html)

Poison


Motley Crue (this one is super NSFW)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cX7tSJBh6Ho

RATT

And here are some non grunge alternative bands just to prove my point further

Pixies


REM


Radiohead





So I honestly think the first four videos and the hair metal videos are more alike then the first four videos and the grunge/alternative videos.


It’s noticeable in the lyrics as well. Alternative bands tend to have lyrics that are more metaphoric and less repetitive.

Pop (Metro Station-shake it)

“Now if she does it like this
Will you do it like that?
Now if she touches like this
Will you touch her right back?
Now if she moves like this
Will you move her like that?
Come on, shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it

Shake, shake
Shake, shake, shake it"

Pop Metal (Warrant-Cherry Pie)
“Swing it in the living room
Swing it in the kitchen
Most folks don't cause they're too busy bitchin'
Swing it in there cause she wants me to feed here
So I mixed up the batter
And she licked the beater

I scream, you scream
We all scream for her
Don't even try cause you can't ignore her”
Grunge
(Alice in Chains-Down In A Hole)
“Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb...in bloom

Down in a hole and I don't know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You don't understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who won't let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin' so small
Down in a hole, losin' my soul
I'd like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied”


I could keep giving examples but I think my point is proven. Modern day pop rock bands are more close to hair metal then alternative. The Metro Station video/song is about sex. The pop "punk" and the pop "metal" bands are much more glitzy, while the grunge ones are more emotional influenced, but without being whiney.

Time to find corupt guy to replace Blagojevich and get arrested later

So our govener has finnally been caught for his douchebaggery. Big shock no not really this is Illinois. Yes between all those exsplicitives the news blocks out he was saying he was doing something illegil. (funny how they block out profanity but dont give warnings for graphicly detailed violence on tv, I guess they go by the WalMart ethic thats its ok to shoot people as long as no one says any bad words.)

But you know what? I finnally figured out my problem. I try to hard. See this weekend i decided to study for my math test which i dont normally do. I get it back and I have a 26% thats the lowest grade i have gotten in like 5 years. Now i whould LOVE to not care and be able to get on with my life, that whould be much easyer. Sadly I have been slightly effected by the system.

Now I know they say caring is better because then you can make something of yourself if you get good grades. Well you know what most of the kids who get good grades and shit grow up to be?...Buisness men/woman, corporate lawyers,CEOs etc. Those people make nothing of themselfs, they just sit at an office and support corperations, how is that any better then sitting at home and smoking pot all day?

It's a loose-loose situation really.

warning- contains (semi) postive material

(semi) positive material is bolded

I think Alice In Chains is pretty much my new favorite band. Although i do find it disrespectful that they replaced Layne with the new guy. I mean i dont have anything against the new guy as a person it's just Layne's voice was very unique and cannot be replaced. EDIT-THE NEW GUY IS ACTUALLY OK SEE HOW OPEN MINDED I AM THE NEW GUY NO LONGER PISSES ME OFF.

But anyway Dr. Wax went out of business but i found a new place called 2nd hand tunes and it has a pretty good selection. If that goes out of business i will probably have to download illegally because i am not paying full price for new cds. I dont understand why those businesses die i mean you'd think people would like less expensive cds especially because people just burn them onto their ipods. But cds in general are not doing good because people just download the top ten on itunes and then when it gets "old" or not on the charts anymore they delete it. The one good chart song is paper planes by MIA but that is only popular because it was in that movie.

Anyways for positive..... I have been looking for new music and discovered the following bands in the past two months or so

Sonic Youth
Mad Season
All Smiles
Sebadoh
Dinosaur Jr.

I have also like starting to become obsessed with Alice in chains did i mention that? haha

now for more negative

Eddie Vedder was nominated for a grammy, this is bad because now ten year old girls will be like "who? oh well if he was nominated for a grammy he must be good!" and then download it and be like "OMGZ VEDDER IS SO KEWLLL OMG DO U KNOW WHO HE IS OMG" and i'll be like "yes i know who he is he is from pearl jam a popular band from the 90s" and then they will either be like "OMGZ THE 90Z THATS SO OLD EWWWW" or "OMGZ I AM SO GRUNGE".

How very very ironic

So at school we are learning about greek philosophers and as soon as the unit started the first thing i thought was "this is ironic". See the greek philosophers all thought differently, something not encouraged in schools. We are all supposed to think alike. In fact i wouldn't even use the word think because thinking results in knowledge, and knowledge technically means understanding and analyzing the world around you, which is also not encouraged.

See in school we dont learn to learn. It works more like this....

memorizing gets good, good grades are not important because they show you have picked up knowledge they are only there for making the school look good and getting into good school. A good school of course is not a school where people challenge the system and think creatively, a good school is a school that costs a lot and gives you a lot of busywork and of course ranks high because the students there can all afford private tutors and dont have to work a job. Then after your done with school now that you have a peace of paper called a degree that determends your worth in society you can get a job, ideal jobs would be working for a cooperation or being a lawyer who represents cooperate organizations. These jobs will pay a lot and that some how makes you happy in life.

but thats probably not what Socrates thought. So why are we learning this? well because freshman learning philosophy makes the school look good. Not because it's interesting, infact they didnt do a very good job draining the interesting parts out of it. See these philosophers would be taught by other philosophers and sometimes DISAGREE with what their teachers said. That in modern times would most likely result in a bad grade.

oh look my grandmother is being racist, how come it's ok for old people to be racist? like john McCain used ethic slurs when talking about asians but when Michelle Obama said "whitey" or something everyone went ballistic..... that was off topic

Anyways i got extended detention for going on yahoo music when i was done with my school work. It was rather boring.

"sheesh Obama won but you can still never stop complaining"

YESSSSSSS

Dont really i still have plenty of complaints

So i spent like 6 hours on an outline for a paper you know outlines are supposed to not take as long as the paper itself.

I want my free dr. pepper whats left of Guns N Roses relesed their cd and dr. pepper said everyone in america whould get a dr pepper and they where not being honest apperantly because first of all you needed internet acsess not everyone has internet. Also the server crashed so like no one chould get there coupons. Apperantly Axl Roses lawyer is mad at them so maybe he will sue and i wont have too haha. Like do you autamaticly get a lawyer when you sign with a major label they all have lawyers sheesh.

So you know i was in the bathroom at school a few weeks ago and i saw this poster for honors club after school i mean what the fuck is that like you just sit there
"I'm in honors"
"really? me too"
"wow bob i'm in the honor roll too!"
"thats such a coincadence we are all in honors!"
I mean its not like honors kids dont have equal rights or something, everyone thinks they are like the stars of the world. I hate those bumper stickers its like "my child is an honor role student" well maybe your child cheats on his/her tests or plagerizes his/her papers or pays a really smart person to do homework for him/her or bribes the teachers or something. Like what about the parent of the dyslexic kid behind you who's kid trys really hard but cant get really good grades becuase the system isn't disigned in the way that they can get the same oppertunates.
You know what else, you get into honor role by getting good grades, that means you can take classes way below your level just to get good grades.
So i decided i'd make a not honors club to show them how pointless their club is.
But then they put me in honor role (i know you really cant tell with my grammer/spelling haha), so there goes anouther great idea.

I mean i dont know how i even got on I guess i am one of the like 6 kids in my humanites class who normally does there homework. See our school is supposed to have this mixed honors kids because apperantly if you put average scoring kids with high scoring kids they normal scoring kids will be like "oh i want to be like these higher scoring kids they are so great." But all the little honors parents where like "I DONT WANT MY KID WITH STUPID PEOPLE!!!!111" and now they all go to the PTSA mettings and bitch about it and the guy who is in charge of this shit who is like this smiley happy guy is probably just like "....k then." So like im probably one of the only kids in the honors whose parents arnt like going ballastic about it.

So i guess i'll admit i was a bit proud of my self for making the honor role but this is apperantly because when it comes to academics i have low self esteem. So by my goal being not to flunk out of school me making the honor role was a plesent suprise this is why i have to think ~negitively~ so i will be plesently supprised when something good happens and not schocked with dissapointment when something bad happens. But then my friends where like "I made the high honor role" which apperantly means they got all As or something i mean all A report cards seem fakeish.

Honors classes are stupid to though, just not as stupid as honor role. The classes are tottaly race segergated because where i live there are like no working class whites the only non rich area is like a working class black/latino area so all the white kids parents went to like law school or something so they insist there kids are put in honors so they will look like they have smart kids when talking with there lawyer/doctor friends. So there are shitloads of black/latino kids in normal classes who chould tottaly be in honors and vise versa.


Also I really whould love if people can stop talking about twighlight now




^my new obbsession i think

I used up your compassion,So I've come to make a trade,You can hate me but just love me in return.

I learned alot this weekend

1.If you see a concert on Halloween people do dress up

2.Real councerts involve drunk people, even if it's not hard/druggy rock

3.There is a dissapointing lack of diversity in holloween candys people give out.

4.My aunt gets really, really, mad with any talk of politics, even saying stuff like "I support Obama". Apperantly it's "not fair to the little ones." You know whats not fair to the little ones? not exsplaining and censoring everything that goes on in the world only to have them confused when they grow up.

5.Conor Oberst looks nice in a ghoast busters suit.

6.Tye Dyeing is really fun and you can make lots of cool things.

7.Cell phone camaras will not be able to take pics during a show

8.It is always worth waiting if you hate one of the opening bands(s).

9.Gas is cheaper in "real america"

10.Doing one really fun thing can make up for a shitty rest of the weekend.

So Friday was one of the best nights of my life, minus the part where kids think i am sad at school beacause I go to councerts by myself. Im sorry I dont want to see your shitty Fall Out Boy bands pretend to be the next Nirvana, It's really sad that I like good music and have my own taste.

I can honestly say i have never been to a real show before this, the enviroment of live music in generial is exsiting. I felt out of place, most of the people where college kids, but I look older. The first band wasn't really my kind of music, the second band was good. It's funny how exsited I got when he acctuelly got on the stage. It's honestly hard not to look like a 14 year old fan girl...oh shit wait....

The people near me where trying to steal the fig newtons from the guy infront of thems pocket. The people behind me where dressed up like rednecks with McCain Palin shirts. The band dressed up as ghoast busters, that was rather funny. Conor was drinking beer between every song and I was scared he'd be wasted by the end of the show. He might of been, but he still preformed well. My Dad, who was sitting in the back pretending not to know me, said that bands always drink on stage.

It was fucking great.

So then for a total change I spent a saturday night at.....A one year olds birthday party! where my aunt freaked out at me for mentioning politics. It is the week of the election for christs sake. Whats funny is my little cousins are mostly Obama supporters even though their parents are republicans. I'm still a bit upset with one of my cousins for useing my old doll to pick her nose but thats anouther story.My aunt also has a statue of a crying bunny in her yard, thats sad.

This may possibly be the most exicting week of my life, Obama is going to win. McCain whould have to win all the toss up states PLUS some of the Obama states. We will regain out respect in the world wide community, I wish I was allowed to stay up all night and watch it, although we have a half day tomorrow.

The annual "I have to write about how columbus was an asshole on columbus day" post.

Columbus did not discover America, we all know that. If you don’t you have been living under a rock, or you go to a catholic school. But do we know what he really did? In 7th grade I found a book on my dads bookshelf called “lies my teacher told me” I thought it would be funny. It wasn’t funny, but it changed the way I think about history.

Lets learn about Columbus now.

Columbus did not set sail to prove the world was round. Many educated people knew the earth was round thousands of years before Columbus. He set sail to find gold, spices, and silks, and other riches in Asia. Columbus landed on an island between Florida and Cuba, no one is sure exactly what island it was. Columbus believed he was in Asia even after three voyages to America and more than a decade of study.

Columbus was not even the first white man to settle in the Americans Scandinavian Vikings already had settlements here in the eleventh century, and British fisherman may fished in Canada decades before Columbus.

So what did he do? Well He seized 1,200 Taino Indians crammed as many onto his ships as would fit and sent them to Spain and sold them as slaves. His marauding band hunted Indians for sport and profit - beating, raping, torturing, killing, and then using the Indian bodies as food for their hunting dogs. The Spaniards demanded that the remaining Indians bring gold. There was almost no gold on Hispaniola. The people were told that if they brought no gold, nor spun cotton as a substitute, they would have their hands cut off and be left to bleed to death. So they fled. Some of the people in his crew tried to take young girls and force them to have sex, when they didn’t the crew raped them, some of them as young as ten. They also brought viruses from Europe that the natives did not have immunity too. Eventually life for the natives became so awful that many took their own life’s. Woman began to abort there children at birth because they believed the children would be happier dead. Within 50 years the population had been wiped out. We know all of this because Columbus and some of his crewmates kept diaries. Only after four years of Columbus' arrival his men had killed or exported one-third of the original Indian population of 300,000. Within another 50 years, the Taino people had been made extinct.

Therefore by celebrating Columbus day we are celebrating a man who was a slave trader. Personally, I think that we should celebrate Indigenous People's Day instead of Columbus day (did you know Berkeley California does that? just a fun fact).

HAHAHAHAHAHA

HA HA HA HA HA HA
IM GOING TO SEE MY FIRST REAL COUNCERT
HA HA HA HA HA HA
IM SEEING CONOR OBERST AND THE MYSTIC VALLEY BAND ON HOLLOWEEN
HA HA HA HA HA HA
im still pissed i didn't get to see eddie vedder but tickets where like 60 bucks so w/e

anyways....
there was this wierd ass flooding a few weeks ago

I didn't take that but i did take these

brithday yay

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my mom took me shopping in wiker park for my birthday and i got loads of stuff and this one store had kittys in it and one of the kittys looked like it had two legs missing so my mom felt bad and started petting it even though she's allergic but turns out the cat was just kinda fat and it was sitting on its legs and we chouldn't see them so my mom got an allergic reaction for nothing.

After that she decided my brother needs cloths to so we went to the mall. at the mall they sell a lot of the same stuff they had at wiker park cos apperantly being a hipster is the new tread the stores have discovered to make money off of , but it was like three times the price so I was all “lol fail”. My brother only goes shopping if i go with him cos he wont let my mom pick stuff out for him so i went and my mom wanted him to go to talbets and i was like "eww no those are like morman cloths" and he thought it was the funnyist thing on earth and then he said he wanted ~teenager cloths~ so i told him that teenage boys normally shop at like hollister/abercrombie and american eagle and we hate hollister and abercrombie in our family so we went to american eagle and i bought something for myself even though i thought i hated that store

there are really some things i'd like to stop hearing about...

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Music: Heaven Beside You- Alice In Chains

there are really some things/people i'd like to stop hearing/dont give a shit about....

Angelina Jolie
Brett Favre
The Olympics
Pete Wentz
Jessica Simpson
John Mayor
American Idol
Metro Station
Michael Jackson
I Love Money
New York City
The Hills
Tom Cruise
Glen Beck
John McCain
Hulk Hogan
Rush Limbaugh
My Chemical Romance
Katie Couric
MySpace
Family Guy
PETA
Justin Timberlake
Coldplay
Toby Keith
MTV
Motley Crue
DARE
NASCAR
Ashlee Simpson
Slipknot
Nickelback

boo

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Stephen Colbert is taking like 3 weeks off and it is killing me. I don't want to have to get my news from CNN they all make really lame jokes and are dull.

But i have a new show i like SOUTH PARK BITCHES

only my brother thinks he is mature enouth to watch whatever I watch so he always wants to watch south park and I am like "this is not approprate for you" and hes like "i dont care"

so the last 3 weeks i was at summerschool my teacher was a very annoying lady. BUT the kids at my high school are much more rebelious, like I wasn't the only one who whould rasie my hand and say something when I disagreed with her. I also wasn't the only one who stood near the door when she tryed to keep us in after the bell rung cuz she chouldn't find her freaking hole puncher and she thought we stole it. I don't know why anyone whould steal a hole puncher. and when we did an "unlikey icon" i made a person up cuz i didn't want to mess up anyone i knows face and i got away with it. The guys who sat behind me wanted to do slash and tell the teacher he was there uncle and that whould have tottaly worked I really doubt the teacher knows who he is and if they used his real name they whould have tottaly gotten away with it but they didn't.

I ALSO GOT A FACEBOOK ACCORDING TO THE THING WHERE YOU CLICK THE MUSIC YOU LIKE AND IT SHOWS YOU OTHER PEOPLE IN YOUR SCHOOL WHO LIKE THE MUSIC I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO LIKES..

Hole
Meat Puppets
and Mudhoney

and also some people like elliott smith but they are all older then me fuckers ;_;

oh the places i've been

Free property map creator

house=were I have lived, duck= were I have vacationed fish= were i have been on a day trip tree=were i wanna go

Oregon Photos

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Music:Lua- Bright Eyes

Oregon was great. The shopping is alot less exspensive then Chicago area . It's also alot prettyer and the people are real friendly. Here are a few pics (click on the pics for full view)




Japanese Gardens










Multanomth Falls




Mt. Hood













Other

I'm in portland :)

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Music:pump it up- Mudhoney

I am now a graduate of the 8th grade, apperantly that is a big deal. My mom threw a graduation party for me and I got like 400 bucks. Now I need to find the CDs i want :).

I'm in Portland Oregon right now. Portland is a lovely city. It's very pretty over here. There are trees everywhere! even downtown, and the city is surronded my mountins. It's a bit chily out but at least we are not getting storms. On the subject of weather back home in chicago we had a tornado watch every day for three days! There was a tornado that landed south of us! I saw a image of it but i can't find it now, it was big.

I rented the movie "singles" for the plain ride. It wasnt as good as i thought but it was entertaining enouth.EDIT: SINGLES IS A HORRIBLE MOVIE THEY ARE JUST DRESSED UP IN GRUNGE CLOTHS TO LOOK COOL THE DUDE CANNOT ACT AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHY PEARL JAM AND ALICE AND CHAINS AND ALL THOSE BANDS WASTED THEIR TIME, ALSO THE CAMERON CROWE GUY WHO DIRECTED IT IS A DUDE AND I THOUGHT CAMERON WAS A GIRLS NAME SO THAT SUPRISED ME

New ipod

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Music:Oh, The Guilt- Nirvana

so I got a new ipod, It is the new nano and it plays videos, but they take up alot of space. It will be nice for the airplane ride to PORTLAND OREGON IN TWO WEEKS!!!!! :)

So tommorow is memorial day. I think all the dead people whould rather us not have it, It is now a corperate holiday so stores can put up memorial day sales, So the people are talking advantage of it. Not really respectful to the people who died for this country.

It's finally warm out, of course it will thunderstorm and bring a cold front. The heat has not been bad at all so far, Last year it was 80 degrees in march! (of course then it snowed in april)

So my new favorite person to make fun of is Axl Rose. Hence the fact that I have also began to find amusement in pissing of Guns N Roses fans. (but if someone likes the band you'd think they whouldn't like Axl, he killed his own band) I know this is probably not the most healthy thing to find amusement in but I just find it fun, It's like my version of going to the mall.

My ipod has died

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A few mounths ago i told myself if my ipod ever broke i whould be really really sad. Well a few days ago the battery died so i decided I would go get some cds. I found a nice local used record store. I origannly wanted to get two of the following albums

XO- Elliott Smith
Bleach-Nirvana
Meat Puppets 2- Meat Puppets
Lifted or The Story Is in the Soil, Keep Your Ear to the Ground- Bright Eyes (why such a short title?)

The CD store had about every cd exsept for those. So i got A Pearl Jam cd and a Screaming Trees CD. For some reason Bright Eyes was in "underground rock" I whouldn't call Bright Eyes underground, I mean i know Green Day fans (other then myself) that listen to Bright Eyes. The ipod battery is like 50 bucks so i will have to wait. But I have been doing fine.

I am supposed to be doing homework right now, but I had to give my Mom her mothers day presents first, then i went on the computer and began editing my five page essay, But of course then my brother yells "THERE IS A THING ON HIPPIES ON TV" and obv. I had the watch the two hour thing on hippies that was on, which i found to be a bit negitive. And now i have to post on this beacuase I do not have family members that want to listen to me rant about what is going on in my life.

The stupid pink smileys are also back for a period of time due to lack of other smileys i can find.

oh yeah

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I also forgot to mention that I am now supporting Obama, he seems like the least of a crook.

I also started watching tv alot *gasp* I like..

CNN headline news
George Lopez
Colbert Report
Daily Show
Mythbusters
Those dumb celeberty shows on the E.

My Mom told my brother he needs to start wereing deoderant and we got axe and it smells very bad. He thinks it makes him attractive to girls but in reality girls hate the smell of axe, like almost as much as when guys fart which i have no idea why they find farting so funny.

Shit

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ok so, my mom works and is a single mom and she naps in all of her free time so she dosn't have time to do laundry alot. So i do it for her sometimes. So she comes into my room all pissed that i did her laundry cuz it's in a basket and not folded. Apperantly something bad happens if you don't fold them. So she comes into my room and starts yelling and takes all her stuff and i'm like "ok i am sorry for being nice i will just let the cloths be all shit".

Last night in stormed real loud. It poured to and we were drving in it and you chouldn't see anything. My brother took cool videos of the lightning but of course he lost them somehow and got real pissed. I mean we will have alot more storms we live in the fucking midwest.

I was also sick for like 4 days and i was to sick and tierd to do homework so now i will be way behind on my projects. My mom is supposed to take this survey i am doing for school to work and survey people but she keeps forgetting. I also choose a very hard topic to reaserch and we are not allowed to use wikipedia and that is rather cruel.

Photobucket also won't let me upload the video i made. It's layout also changes like every week and it's annoying.

earthquake?

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Music:Let it Slide- Mudhoney

So like, there is a fault line or whatever it is called in southern illinois. On friday at like 4:30am there was one and it was felt all over the midwest. Including here. Of course i was asleep. I just had to sleep though it. I'm sure if i lived somewhere they happened alot i whould have woken up but when it's a rare chance i don't wake up.

I also have a better set of smileys now

Stuff that has happened to me in the past few weeks

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Music:Backwater-Meat Puppets

Stuff has been happening. Here are some examples

1. I tryed to use a tampon but it wouldn't go in and it hurt, also if i use it i might get tss according to the tampon box, whatever tss is.

2. My teachers now like to tell me i look grunge.

3. I have made my decision about what I'm going to do for a living, i'm going to be a hippie.

4. I have begun to delete all of the Fall Out Boy and MCR from my ipod, therefor making my music taste really great.

5. the sky is really dark but it's not raining, i think it's constipated,

6. i have decided that makeup is stupid and now only use it on formal occasions.

7. I am banned from contacting my online friends.

I am also getting quite sick of these cute pink smileys, i am going to go find a better set of smileys.

My music teacher hates us

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Music: St. Ides Heaven- Elliott Smith

So like my music teacher has some wierd thing agianst us and she always tells us we can't sing. And now she is making come during art class to practice. She also likes to single us out, but mostly the ones who can sing. Now she is mad at us for not singing loud enouth, I mean if you tell kids they can't sing then they are not going to sing loud obv. So now we have to preform infront of like 20 people and it makes me real sad.

On lighter not i also got new flannels and i look quite ~grunge~ only now other people are wereing them cuz they are fashionable now and this makes me sad. Maybe grunge is coming back

also I'm pretty sure i'm marrying this man


yes he is going to fall in love with me when i meet him

The Big C”- Community or Conformity?

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Music: Things behind the Sun- Nick Drake

The school I attend is very “community” based. Many of the rules that most of the students find unnecessary are apparently for the “community” or “the big C”. No ipods, no cell phones at lunch, etc. All because we are supposed to socialize. Now I have no problem with people socializing, my problem is some people are not always in the mood to “socialize”. Or sometimes people are not with their friends at the moment. Today at lunch my friends all went to the social studies room to catch up on their projects. So I sat alone, I am a quick eater so for about 15 minutes I sat and did nothing. Meanwhile the kids who are the ideal members of the community all giggled and screamed and made stupid jokes. Interestingly enough, the kids who are more active members of the “community” are more likely to talk in class, cheat on their “boyfriends” or “girlfriends”, and have trouble working in groups because they just want to gossip the whole time.

A few weeks ago we had those anti drug people come. The presentation was ridicules for the same reasons they always are, they give you no reasons not to do drugs they just tell you to “say no”, they over dramatize the social pressure, and they try to be “cool”. However, there was one part that was rather interesting, they asked for students to come up and act out a situation with them. About seven girls came up, in the scene one girl was trying to get her friend to drink and said to all the kids “see it’s good, try it!” all of the “cool” kids nervously giggled and tried it, but my friend said “no you guys are stupid, I’m going to leave and if you get caught that’s not my problem.” Afterwards they asked “now would you really drink?” and of course they all said no but I am pretty sure that a few unnamed people in that group would.

Now if you think about it, we are supposed to do what the “community” does. I know the teachers don’t intend to include stuff like drinking, but when kids are used to “following the community” they will probably not take the time to pause and think about what they are doing, they will just follow. Maybe regret it later, but they can’t go back in time. Another example is a few days ago kids were using the music room without permission. When the teachers asked them why they said “everyone else was there so I thought it was ok”. They are simply used to following the community, that’s the way their minds have been trained.

Of course I’m not saying outgoing people are all mindless conformists, but I am thinking perhaps because they want acceptance from their peers so much they are more likely to follow them in whatever they do, both good and bad. Perhaps we should be taught to follow what we think is the right thing to do instead of following the “community” because they could very well be doing something we are not supposed to do or something that isn’t a very good idea.

"Flannels" for 60 dollers?

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Music:Overblown- Mudhoney

The Past two days I have been home sick. When I get sick I don't get so sick that i can't walk or anything. Therefor I am catching up on my 90s project, which is going quite well. With the 90s on my mind I have been listening to some grunge music thats not Nirvana. Thats quite new to me. I never tryed it before due to the fact that people said "other grunge is just screaming, Nirvana has talent". I found that to be quite untrue. Screamo is just screaming, I don't get that genre. Oh look "wake me up when september ends" has just came on Nirvanas similer artists radio on last.fm. Thats a bit odd.

Anyways this weekend my dad dragged me into sears and I found a flannel for 10 bucks in the mens department. So I bought it and wore it with my Nirvana shirt and old converses to a family party to see if my Grandmother would cry. She didn't notice. The next day I was at forever 21 buying earrings and I saw "flannels" for like 60 bucks. Apperantly "flannel" is in again. See I don't like trends, but I really don't like trends if it's something I did first or that was something I was fond of (ex. hating the goverment,listening to music that has never been on the charts,). So now it's like all these kids my age are running around going "OMgZz ThIS FLAnNeL tHiNg WOulD lOoK sO HaWt wItH mY NeWz AbErCrOMbe JeaNs!!111". Meanwhile i'm there with my 10 doller flannel from the mens department and i'm thinking "fuck you, I have a real flannel"

Basicly what i'm trying to say is.
A. can't the trend followers just stick with there little abercrombie cloths instead of ruining all that is good?
B. Why pay 60 bucks for something thats supposed to be cheap
and
C. Why is the fashion industry full of tools?

long time no post

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Music:World Wide Suicide- Pearl Jam

Happy Pulaski Day, if you don't know what that is you probably don't live in Illinois. Therefor, consider yourself lucky.

i honestly forget I had a blog. Anyway my life hasn't been quite exiteing. I have a new hobby though, painting. I suck very much at it. I also have became increasingly sensitive to noise. Green Day has also moved out of my top ten, i'm quite proud of that. Last fm is being a bitch and it won't update charts, I find this very rude.