Havn't blogged in a while....
My grades suck now, and you know what? Thats fine. Fuck it.
Im failing science, because i was fucking sick and i cant make up all the fucking work right away. Well i could but im not dedicating my life to it. Im not even going to pretend to be like any of those little overachievers anymore, because even if i wanted to i couldn't keep up with them, so why should i pretend? I dont go to lunch anymore, i go to one of the art rooms, and its so much better, i dont have to listen to the same conversations about how hard physics is or how they are going to take 5 ap classes next year over and over again. One chick was complaining about being in honors history, instead of AP. Because shes taking AP math, science, English, and whatever fucking language she's in. Apparently thats not good enough. So by those standards im equivalent to a house fly with no legs that lives on a piece of dog shit. So i decided that hanging out with these kids next year will make me crazy, so i decided to find a new group of friends, its going pretty well, because i found people who are smart but not assholes about it.
And you know what the sad thing is? Some people think our school is ghetto, because its not ALL rich white kids of CEOs, only about half. And the other towns in the area are about 80-98% rich white kids of CEOs. Those people in those towns are fucking crazy. Like everyone is like that individual mentioned above with "only" 4 ap classes. Plus these kids use drugs like they are free samples of chocolates or something, because they have so much freakin money. These are the kinds of kids who have partys in their basements where everyone is on ecstasy and end up getting/giving a blow job, and their parents are upstairs and know whats going on and are just like "ohhhhh you crazy kids!" But anyways....
Also, i'm in this group at school for depressed kids, and one was talking about how hard her life is, and it actually is a situation that is difficult, it wasnt just like "oh i lost my phone" but your supposed to like give support to peers and this other girl was like "oh well thats real life, your gonna have bosses worse then your teachers and you cant just ditch work cuz you gotta make money. No ones gonna take care of you in the real world." I dont know if its just me but i dont think that is very helpful. I was like "yeah but you have more control when your an adult" and the chick is like "hell no you have less". I mean she's probably right in most cases, but in some of these particular cases its not really true.
Lots of shit, so i will summarize it.
New musical obsession=The Doors
New favorite class=This art history combo class im taking this semester
Site im currently addicted to= www.polyvore.com (totally stupid i know)
Shows i started watching (yes, just what i need, more tv)= Skins, Freaks and Geeks, My so called life.
Recently made goal=Befriend the so called "burnouts" because they are not up their own asses like almost everyone else at my school, and they seem funny. Plus some of them dont even do drugs, they just hang out with people you do. (yes kids, those dare commercials you saw are PRETEND! you can be friends with someone who makes different choices then you and you are capable of respecting one and others choices!)
Things i forgot i liked and remembered i liked again=The sound of birds chirping, Hippie dresses, yogurt covered raisins, incense, people with personalitys.
yup...
Showing posts with label school. Show all posts
Showing posts with label school. Show all posts
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
FML
I decided the pilgrims aren't worthy of my time, so i wont tell you guys about how they were assholes, because hardly anyone reads this and i need to get stuff out.
The holidays were good, i dont know why people always complain about them being stressful, i imagine most of those people dont go to school, use birth control or have jobs if thats the most stressful thing they can think of. You just buy shit for people and eat.
But now its January which is the shittiest month next to september, maybe worse in fact. Even though the announcement of the Soundgarden reunion made it less horrible this is still the time of year i get angry and bored of life.
I have lost my motivation in school. I have 4 Bs, 2 B-s and 1 A. Now that sounds good but the thing is the classes im getting the lower grades in are all fucking easy and i should be getting As. I hate those people who get pissed about getting a B and so im actually really confused right now, because now im kind of one of those people, but im also kind of not because those people are all honors, future AP, ivy league aspiring kids. I have a B in math, that is a problem because they put me in a fucking slow math class. Even though thats probably the highest grade in the class that pisses me off because it should be easy for me, because the class is fucking slow. But im just not doing it right. Then Science is easy, i should have taken honors, the only reason i didn't was because i thought this year would be hard and i didnt want to do the internship. English WAS easy because my teacher actually dosnt want us to become suicidal (until today at least) but of course the other person working on the project had to get sick and i have no fucking time left because we spent the last 2 weeks of english doing latin hw. Latin is fucked up because i am unorganized with it and lose everything. And health, health isn't even a real class so that means i should get an A, but i have a B. I guess i got a D on my anti drug project, i have not been explained on why but i am assuming it contained too many facts and not enough scare tactics and propaganda. I worked so fucking hard on that project to, over break actually. I was up til like 2 am the day before it was due and i actually put effort into it. I have had one project this year where my effort had actually payed off, i would have had 2 if english wasnt so fucked up. See the problem is that i need higher grades then most people with my train of thought think they need because of a few reasons.
1. I dont like most people here so i dont do much after school, that apparently pisses colleges off.
2. Peer pressure, fuck! people think peer pressure is all about drugs and shit. At this place i'd much rather have friends who are OCD about smoking weed then school. Its not direct, they are not like "wtf you are not in all honors what is wrong with you?" but its just like "oh i got reccomended for all AP, what about you guys? you didn't oh why not?"
3. I feel out of place is normal/slow level classes, im one of the only white kids normally. Im sorry if thats racist but its true, something about the culture here has white people all up their asses and snobby here. They are like OCD here. Now obviously i have nothing against non white people, its actually nice to be the only white kid sometimes because i think its cool being exposed to diversity, esspecially coming from a private school thats like 95% white/Asian. I just feel awkward. Also the people in regular/slow mostly dont care about school, probably because they are fucking kids who want to hang out with friends and have fun stuff like normal, functioning 15 year olds are supposed to.
Even though some of my friends arn't like all A students they are still taking like 4 AP classes because they are really fucking smart. I cant do that, i cant just go home and start hw and finish it even if it takes me 5 hours, i could last year but not any more. I dont know what the hell is wrong with me, i mean i know im just not school smart but its just like how can everyone else be so motivated and school smart and perfect? I went to a private middle school aren't i supposed to be in all honors like everyone else from the school was? Why cant i figure that shit out? I get pissed off at my friends because i actually wish i could be like them and think they are smarter then me. Im not actually that pissed at them im just pissed at myself. I am so confused and i hate this school. I tried hanging out with not honors kids last year but they kind of just wanted to copy my HW. I mean i let them because thats how society in our school is, even though your not allowed to its like something everyone does and its rude not to. I just hate listening to people talk about how they got recommended for all AP when i'm probably not gonna even take a fucking AP class next year.
Oh and to make things worse my spontaneous increasing interest in boys is killing me because im to insecure for dating, half of the boys in my grade havn't even finished fucking puberty and most of the ones who have are taken. Also most guys like stupid girls with weak personality's and no opinions and im sorry but not everyone can look like fucking megan fox belive me if i could i'd love to because then i'd have shit handed to me and i wouldn't have to worry about any of this shit. Although i'd obviously feel guilty for exploiting and others myself buts thats pretty much what society is all about.
Also my teacher decided to call my mom and now she wont even leave me alone because of this english project thing.
Ok now thats out, good.
The holidays were good, i dont know why people always complain about them being stressful, i imagine most of those people dont go to school, use birth control or have jobs if thats the most stressful thing they can think of. You just buy shit for people and eat.
But now its January which is the shittiest month next to september, maybe worse in fact. Even though the announcement of the Soundgarden reunion made it less horrible this is still the time of year i get angry and bored of life.
I have lost my motivation in school. I have 4 Bs, 2 B-s and 1 A. Now that sounds good but the thing is the classes im getting the lower grades in are all fucking easy and i should be getting As. I hate those people who get pissed about getting a B and so im actually really confused right now, because now im kind of one of those people, but im also kind of not because those people are all honors, future AP, ivy league aspiring kids. I have a B in math, that is a problem because they put me in a fucking slow math class. Even though thats probably the highest grade in the class that pisses me off because it should be easy for me, because the class is fucking slow. But im just not doing it right. Then Science is easy, i should have taken honors, the only reason i didn't was because i thought this year would be hard and i didnt want to do the internship. English WAS easy because my teacher actually dosnt want us to become suicidal (until today at least) but of course the other person working on the project had to get sick and i have no fucking time left because we spent the last 2 weeks of english doing latin hw. Latin is fucked up because i am unorganized with it and lose everything. And health, health isn't even a real class so that means i should get an A, but i have a B. I guess i got a D on my anti drug project, i have not been explained on why but i am assuming it contained too many facts and not enough scare tactics and propaganda. I worked so fucking hard on that project to, over break actually. I was up til like 2 am the day before it was due and i actually put effort into it. I have had one project this year where my effort had actually payed off, i would have had 2 if english wasnt so fucked up. See the problem is that i need higher grades then most people with my train of thought think they need because of a few reasons.
1. I dont like most people here so i dont do much after school, that apparently pisses colleges off.
2. Peer pressure, fuck! people think peer pressure is all about drugs and shit. At this place i'd much rather have friends who are OCD about smoking weed then school. Its not direct, they are not like "wtf you are not in all honors what is wrong with you?" but its just like "oh i got reccomended for all AP, what about you guys? you didn't oh why not?"
3. I feel out of place is normal/slow level classes, im one of the only white kids normally. Im sorry if thats racist but its true, something about the culture here has white people all up their asses and snobby here. They are like OCD here. Now obviously i have nothing against non white people, its actually nice to be the only white kid sometimes because i think its cool being exposed to diversity, esspecially coming from a private school thats like 95% white/Asian. I just feel awkward. Also the people in regular/slow mostly dont care about school, probably because they are fucking kids who want to hang out with friends and have fun stuff like normal, functioning 15 year olds are supposed to.
Even though some of my friends arn't like all A students they are still taking like 4 AP classes because they are really fucking smart. I cant do that, i cant just go home and start hw and finish it even if it takes me 5 hours, i could last year but not any more. I dont know what the hell is wrong with me, i mean i know im just not school smart but its just like how can everyone else be so motivated and school smart and perfect? I went to a private middle school aren't i supposed to be in all honors like everyone else from the school was? Why cant i figure that shit out? I get pissed off at my friends because i actually wish i could be like them and think they are smarter then me. Im not actually that pissed at them im just pissed at myself. I am so confused and i hate this school. I tried hanging out with not honors kids last year but they kind of just wanted to copy my HW. I mean i let them because thats how society in our school is, even though your not allowed to its like something everyone does and its rude not to. I just hate listening to people talk about how they got recommended for all AP when i'm probably not gonna even take a fucking AP class next year.
Oh and to make things worse my spontaneous increasing interest in boys is killing me because im to insecure for dating, half of the boys in my grade havn't even finished fucking puberty and most of the ones who have are taken. Also most guys like stupid girls with weak personality's and no opinions and im sorry but not everyone can look like fucking megan fox belive me if i could i'd love to because then i'd have shit handed to me and i wouldn't have to worry about any of this shit. Although i'd obviously feel guilty for exploiting and others myself buts thats pretty much what society is all about.
Also my teacher decided to call my mom and now she wont even leave me alone because of this english project thing.
Ok now thats out, good.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Viva student revolution!
At school we always have these stupid ass assemblies about something like how evil drugs are, how if you get stalked on the internet its your fault for using it, how cheating on tests is immoral, etc. They are loud, the sound quality is bad, they only let us sit in half of the place all squished together when the other half is completely empty. And 80% of the time is just the dean yelling at us. We had one last week, and i had a plan to sneak out with someone, at the last minute he backed out, thats fine, its none of my business if others go or not. I thought it could never hurt to just check if any doors were unlocked, and i ended up running into a group of kids looking for unlocked doors, i followed them for about five minutes until i heard a kid shouting "YES!" I ran out. And there were about 70 other kids, and probably another 100 at the other open door. It was cold and rainy outside but i ran for about 4 minutes, then when i felt safe i started walking home, but i went the wrong way....oops
I ended up calling my mom for instructions, and the first thing she said was "when you ditch school it is customary not to call your mom asking for directions" turns out she was more mad at me for going the wrong way than ditching. I ended up in another town eventually, and i probably ended up walking at least 3 miles in total, but eventually i got home. Still before i would have if i stayed.
And you know what the best part was? we won this time. We, the students fucking won. Because so many parents were calling the school saying that their kids had doctors appointments during that time, and so many kids snuck out, and so many people wrote complaining about how pointless it was and so many people couldn't get everything organized that the school announced they will be discontinuing the assembles. Yes kids got in trouble and yes they are trying to track down the people who snuck out so they can get them in trouble, but in the long term we won.
I still cant believe the students actually fucking won.
No detentions or anything so far, but on the morning announcements the guy in charge of our school decided to take an extra 3 minutes or so to make us feel guilty. He was talking about how these were supposed to make our school better and special and so and so. And then he started going off topic and quoted Martin Luther King and some holocaust survivor who said something like "you don't know the privileges you have until they are taken away" and i thought that was totally inappropriate because the guy was obviously referring to basic human essentials like food and for him to bring up the holocaust to try to make us feel bad was offensive, especially considering our school has a significant Jewish population (im not sure about any statistics, but im guessing around 15-20% or so of the school is Jewish) and their grandparents or so could have been holocaust survivors. Now nobody listens to the morning announcements, but i did and i asked some other kids if they thought it was inappropriate and they said none of them really listened, so i asked some teachers to clarify what he said (they couldn't actually say what he said was stupid so i asked for clarification to bring the subject up) of course most of them said things like "i didn't hear, i was in the bathroom" but one teacher (special ed, go figure) did admit he thought it was a dumb time to bring that up.
And yeah my Mom is pretty understanding about me hating school and stuff, she knows i am a decent student and i dont ditch class and that i act appropriately when im challenging something so she wasn't to mad because she figured if it was important i wouldn't ditch.
Check back in the next few days for me ranting about how the pilgrims were douche bags.
I ended up calling my mom for instructions, and the first thing she said was "when you ditch school it is customary not to call your mom asking for directions" turns out she was more mad at me for going the wrong way than ditching. I ended up in another town eventually, and i probably ended up walking at least 3 miles in total, but eventually i got home. Still before i would have if i stayed.
And you know what the best part was? we won this time. We, the students fucking won. Because so many parents were calling the school saying that their kids had doctors appointments during that time, and so many kids snuck out, and so many people wrote complaining about how pointless it was and so many people couldn't get everything organized that the school announced they will be discontinuing the assembles. Yes kids got in trouble and yes they are trying to track down the people who snuck out so they can get them in trouble, but in the long term we won.
I still cant believe the students actually fucking won.
No detentions or anything so far, but on the morning announcements the guy in charge of our school decided to take an extra 3 minutes or so to make us feel guilty. He was talking about how these were supposed to make our school better and special and so and so. And then he started going off topic and quoted Martin Luther King and some holocaust survivor who said something like "you don't know the privileges you have until they are taken away" and i thought that was totally inappropriate because the guy was obviously referring to basic human essentials like food and for him to bring up the holocaust to try to make us feel bad was offensive, especially considering our school has a significant Jewish population (im not sure about any statistics, but im guessing around 15-20% or so of the school is Jewish) and their grandparents or so could have been holocaust survivors. Now nobody listens to the morning announcements, but i did and i asked some other kids if they thought it was inappropriate and they said none of them really listened, so i asked some teachers to clarify what he said (they couldn't actually say what he said was stupid so i asked for clarification to bring the subject up) of course most of them said things like "i didn't hear, i was in the bathroom" but one teacher (special ed, go figure) did admit he thought it was a dumb time to bring that up.
And yeah my Mom is pretty understanding about me hating school and stuff, she knows i am a decent student and i dont ditch class and that i act appropriately when im challenging something so she wasn't to mad because she figured if it was important i wouldn't ditch.
Check back in the next few days for me ranting about how the pilgrims were douche bags
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Sunday, November 1, 2009
I forgot i had this thing....
I forgot i had a blog
You know what pisses me off? when homework sheets are all like "answer on a seperate sheet of paper" when there is plenty of room on the back or even at the bottom of the page. And then when you answer it on the back teachers get all pissed. I mean how wasteful is that?
Anyways, i thought these where amusing, i dont know if they are real or not.
You know what pisses me off? when homework sheets are all like "answer on a seperate sheet of paper" when there is plenty of room on the back or even at the bottom of the page. And then when you answer it on the back teachers get all pissed. I mean how wasteful is that?
Anyways, i thought these where amusing, i dont know if they are real or not.
Friday, September 25, 2009
lots of stuff
My computer has been acting really strange lately, it keeps getting these viruses. My antivirus sucks so i cant remove some of them and it has like 300 cookies and is really slow.i got a new one but i have no idea how to set it up and i don't know how to get my itunes into it. My dad at least figured how to get this one temporarily working.
For the first time in my life i am actually showing some interest in boys. I actually thought i was a lesbian for a while in 7th grade but then i realized i dont like chicks ether. Sadly the guys at my school are mostly douchy and some of them still havn't finished puberty (They are like 15 wtf is taking them so long). I dont think they like me either because when they act douchy i get irritated with them and i dont look like Megan Fox who is apparently like a shrine for teenage boys who are just starting to grow facial hair.
Most of the rocker kids or the artsy kids are juniors and seniors and they smoke before and after school. I know this because when i take the bus i see a bunch of people with like ramones shirts and mohawks or guys with long hair smoking when i am walking to where to bus stops. My friend (or maybe i can refer to her as an ex friend because its impossible to keep in touch with people who you don't have classes/lunch with at my school because its so freaking big) hangs out with them even though she overdoes the whole skater thing, listens to normal pop music, and is convinced she can't wear skirts because it will make her unfeminist or something. I In a way i wish i was older but i am actually scared to death of Junior year with all the tests and stuff. The annoying thing is last year there were some cool sophomores and they told me they liked my AIC shirt and stuff but this year the kids are still like they where last year. I guess my grade is just boring.
Apparently we are supposed to start thinking of colleges now which is strange because that is kind of supposed to be a junior year thing,actually last year they told us to think about in. If i remember right they actually asked me what college i want to go to in 7th grade and i was just like "WTF IM NOT EVEN IN HIGH SCHOOL YET!" i bet by the time my generation is having kids they will have have like a college and career guy at the ultrasound thingy saying like "Hmm, i think this looks like a Harvard baby. Ok next is baby #20194572, well this baby should definitely look into applying for university of Wisconsin. Ok and baby number #20194573, well i hate to break it to you ma'am but your baby looks kind of dim, at best he will be able to get into a community college." Its like everyone wants genious babys and you see all this advertisements for things like teaching a 2 year old how to read. My moms sisters were over a couple of months ago and they have like 2-11 year olds and they where like "Oh Laura are your kids on the honor role? Its like we havn't even gotten our my child is an honor student bumper stickers yet its ridiculous. Oh Julie i'm so glad your sending your kids to a catholic school because if they go to a public school they will do drugs and evil things like that." Honestly its so stupid. I feel like i am rebelling against my social class/suburban household just by typing "dont" instead of "don't".
Thats all i feel like typing. 3 day weekend this week so im going to clean out my backpack and go though useless junk i forgot i had in my room.
For the first time in my life i am actually showing some interest in boys. I actually thought i was a lesbian for a while in 7th grade but then i realized i dont like chicks ether. Sadly the guys at my school are mostly douchy and some of them still havn't finished puberty (They are like 15 wtf is taking them so long). I dont think they like me either because when they act douchy i get irritated with them and i dont look like Megan Fox who is apparently like a shrine for teenage boys who are just starting to grow facial hair.
Most of the rocker kids or the artsy kids are juniors and seniors and they smoke before and after school. I know this because when i take the bus i see a bunch of people with like ramones shirts and mohawks or guys with long hair smoking when i am walking to where to bus stops. My friend (or maybe i can refer to her as an ex friend because its impossible to keep in touch with people who you don't have classes/lunch with at my school because its so freaking big) hangs out with them even though she overdoes the whole skater thing, listens to normal pop music, and is convinced she can't wear skirts because it will make her unfeminist or something. I In a way i wish i was older but i am actually scared to death of Junior year with all the tests and stuff. The annoying thing is last year there were some cool sophomores and they told me they liked my AIC shirt and stuff but this year the kids are still like they where last year. I guess my grade is just boring.
Apparently we are supposed to start thinking of colleges now which is strange because that is kind of supposed to be a junior year thing,actually last year they told us to think about in. If i remember right they actually asked me what college i want to go to in 7th grade and i was just like "WTF IM NOT EVEN IN HIGH SCHOOL YET!" i bet by the time my generation is having kids they will have have like a college and career guy at the ultrasound thingy saying like "Hmm, i think this looks like a Harvard baby. Ok next is baby #20194572, well this baby should definitely look into applying for university of Wisconsin. Ok and baby number #20194573, well i hate to break it to you ma'am but your baby looks kind of dim, at best he will be able to get into a community college." Its like everyone wants genious babys and you see all this advertisements for things like teaching a 2 year old how to read. My moms sisters were over a couple of months ago and they have like 2-11 year olds and they where like "Oh Laura are your kids on the honor role? Its like we havn't even gotten our my child is an honor student bumper stickers yet its ridiculous. Oh Julie i'm so glad your sending your kids to a catholic school because if they go to a public school they will do drugs and evil things like that." Honestly its so stupid. I feel like i am rebelling against my social class/suburban household just by typing "dont" instead of "don't".
Thats all i feel like typing. 3 day weekend this week so im going to clean out my backpack and go though useless junk i forgot i had in my room.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Schools back
So far none of my teachers seem like complete douche bags actually. Of course you need to give them time before you decide. Its going ok so far, but i forgot my locker combination so i have to carry everything in my back pack and i look like a moron with it. I seem a little more comfortable with myself though, im not really scared of talking to people i don't know very well as much as i was last year. I really hate passing periods though because everyone is crashing into you and shoving you and stuff. That always makes me really nervous.
Anyways, i saw Pearl Jam on the 23rd, which was defiantly one of the best parts of my summer. I tryed to take videos but they looked like ants from where i was and the sound quality on my camera sucks. In fact it said to audio recordings on my ticket so i just did it to see if anyone noticed (no one did). But it was really fun and they where great. I also spend last weekend in Madison Wisconsin, which is defiantly one of the best places in the Midwest. I actually found a good cd store which had some stuff like Babes In Toyland and L7. Then the guy working at the place asked me if i remembered some video from like 1991. I guess i look 30 something to him, maybe its because i was wearing my glasses which makes me look more mature.
But i have decided i need to make another list. I dont know if anyone else gets this but you know that feeling when you hear a song that for some reason makes you like drop what your thinking about and your stomach just feels like its going to sink? Like they are normally sad songs but not always, that just suddenly change your mood. I am going to make a list of songs that do that to me because im stuck at my dads house and there is nothing better to do here.
God Am-Alice In Chains
Backwater-Meat Puppets
You know your Right-Nirvana
Color Bars-Elliott Smith
I believe in symmetry-Bright Eyes
Pennyroyal Tea-Nirvana
Pretty Noose-Soundgarden
Yellow Ledbetter-Pearl Jam
Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns-Mother Love Bone
Desecration Smile-Red Hot Chili Peppers
Society-Eddie Vedder
Nutshell-Alice In Chains
Brother-Alice In Chains
Long Gone Day-Mad Season
A fond Farewell-Elliott Smith
Sludge Factory- Alice In Chains
Old Age-Nirvana
Doll Parts-Hole
No Ceiling-Eddie Vedder
Man of Golden Words-Mother Love Bone
Junk Bond Trader-Elliott Smith
Got me Wrong-Alice In Chains
Butterfly-Screaming Trees
Losing my Religion-R.E.M
St Ives Heaven-Elliott Smith
It all Dies anyways-The Gits
Pretty (Ugly Before)-Elliott Smith
Stargazer-Mother Love Bone
Over the Hills and Far Away-Led Zeppelin
Galaxie-Blind Melon
Angel in the Snow-Elliott Smith
Dollar Bill-Screaming Trees
Danny Callahan-Conor Oberst
Coming Up Roses-Elliott Smith
And the Wind Crys Mary-Jimi Hendrix
Down in A Hole-Alice In Chains
And there are more but im forgetting them. So im just wondering if those songs do that to other people, or any songs for that matter.
Anyways, i saw Pearl Jam on the 23rd, which was defiantly one of the best parts of my summer. I tryed to take videos but they looked like ants from where i was and the sound quality on my camera sucks. In fact it said to audio recordings on my ticket so i just did it to see if anyone noticed (no one did). But it was really fun and they where great. I also spend last weekend in Madison Wisconsin, which is defiantly one of the best places in the Midwest. I actually found a good cd store which had some stuff like Babes In Toyland and L7. Then the guy working at the place asked me if i remembered some video from like 1991. I guess i look 30 something to him, maybe its because i was wearing my glasses which makes me look more mature.
But i have decided i need to make another list. I dont know if anyone else gets this but you know that feeling when you hear a song that for some reason makes you like drop what your thinking about and your stomach just feels like its going to sink? Like they are normally sad songs but not always, that just suddenly change your mood. I am going to make a list of songs that do that to me because im stuck at my dads house and there is nothing better to do here.
God Am-Alice In Chains
Backwater-Meat Puppets
You know your Right-Nirvana
Color Bars-Elliott Smith
I believe in symmetry-Bright Eyes
Pennyroyal Tea-Nirvana
Pretty Noose-Soundgarden
Yellow Ledbetter-Pearl Jam
Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns-Mother Love Bone
Desecration Smile-Red Hot Chili Peppers
Society-Eddie Vedder
Nutshell-Alice In Chains
Brother-Alice In Chains
Long Gone Day-Mad Season
A fond Farewell-Elliott Smith
Sludge Factory- Alice In Chains
Old Age-Nirvana
Doll Parts-Hole
No Ceiling-Eddie Vedder
Man of Golden Words-Mother Love Bone
Junk Bond Trader-Elliott Smith
Got me Wrong-Alice In Chains
Butterfly-Screaming Trees
Losing my Religion-R.E.M
St Ives Heaven-Elliott Smith
It all Dies anyways-The Gits
Pretty (Ugly Before)-Elliott Smith
Stargazer-Mother Love Bone
Over the Hills and Far Away-Led Zeppelin
Galaxie-Blind Melon
Angel in the Snow-Elliott Smith
Dollar Bill-Screaming Trees
Danny Callahan-Conor Oberst
Coming Up Roses-Elliott Smith
And the Wind Crys Mary-Jimi Hendrix
Down in A Hole-Alice In Chains
And there are more but im forgetting them. So im just wondering if those songs do that to other people, or any songs for that matter.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I am writing this in advance.
Long time no post. I just got back from LA, Venice beach is awesome! i will write more about that later but when i was making lemonade at 10:30 (i forgot colbert was on, damn time zones)i had the sudden urge to write this. Basically, my school has these things called "formal presentations" where a large amount of your grade (20% i think?) depends on if you are dressed "formally". And that pisses me off....
Why I will not be dressing up for the next “formal presentation”
I will give this to the teacher next time we have a “formal presentation”
Dear future teacher,
First of all I would like to thank you for reading this. A lot of teachers don’t seem to communicate effectively with their students or listen to the suggestions or concerns of their students. I know some teachers probably wouldn’t read something a student wrote explaining why they did not follow a rule. That being said, I am aware that this is a school with no exceptions to the rules. This is a school where a student not doing his or her homework because she or he doesn’t feel like it and a student not doing their homework because their younger sibling got hurt and needs to be taken to a doctor. Do I think that is fair? Of course not, it disgusts me, and if I had been in that situation I would also be attempting to explain it to you. (But luckily I am in a situation where no one I am supposed to be looking out for is in need of immediate medical attention.) Therefore, I do not expect you to give me the points I would have gotten for dressing formally. I just want you to understand that I am not doing this because I am lazy or attempting to be disrespectful, I am doing this because I want to express my views on this. I would also like to inform you that I am writing this in July, before I know who my teachers will be. This is because I find it to be easier for me to write this before I know my teacher, to help avoid feeling guilty, nervous, uncomfortable, or bothersome while writing it. I am not even sure if I will be required to dress formally for a presentation, but I am assuming so because I was told by my freshman English teacher that we will be having formal presentations for all of high school. Now that all of this has been explained I am going to get to the reasons why I didn’t dress up.
The first reason is that it is simply unfair for students who have families that are struggling economically. If students do not own clothing that meet your description of “formal clothes” they will have to buy new clothes. As you probably know we do have a significant amount of families living here that are under the poverty line, and many of the students here are eligible for a free or reduced priced lunch. If students can hardly afford food how do you expect them to be able to gather enough money to buy new clothes? Assignments like formal presentations are a large reason for “the achievement gap.” Students of all economic backgrounds should be given equal opportunity. When I brought this up to a teacher last year I was told if I can afford the clothes then I shouldn’t worry about it, but as someone who personally can afford it I feel like it is unfair for me to be given a better grade because of that.
The second reason I dislike the idea of students being graded on if their clothes are “formal” or not is because you are giving students points based on their appearance. Are teenagers not already too consumed with the way they dress? I understand that students sometimes where clothing that would be distracting. It is reasonable for a teacher to not want his or her students giving a presentation in a shirt with a sexually suggestive image or a gun printed on the shirt. But for us to not even be able to where some non ripped, appropriately fitted jeans is ridicules (I am aware that I do where ripped jeans and unfitted shirts to school, but I was using that as an example.) If students are to concerned about their appearance they will have trouble concentrating on the actual presentation. It also sends out a materialistic message to students. Is society already not materialistic enough?
There are other reasons I dislike the idea of formal presentations, but those are the main two I wanted to express. Once again I am not doing this because I am to lazy to dress up or because I want to be disrespectful. I typically play along with the school system, I normally do my homework, I study for tests, etc. I do this instead of things relevant to my personal interests, which include music, art, social issues, and many other things that go deeper then texting, shopping and cute boys. But I feel like grading kids on the way they dress is just really unnecessary. Anyways, I would like to thank you for reading this.
Why I will not be dressing up for the next “formal presentation”
I will give this to the teacher next time we have a “formal presentation”
Dear future teacher,
First of all I would like to thank you for reading this. A lot of teachers don’t seem to communicate effectively with their students or listen to the suggestions or concerns of their students. I know some teachers probably wouldn’t read something a student wrote explaining why they did not follow a rule. That being said, I am aware that this is a school with no exceptions to the rules. This is a school where a student not doing his or her homework because she or he doesn’t feel like it and a student not doing their homework because their younger sibling got hurt and needs to be taken to a doctor. Do I think that is fair? Of course not, it disgusts me, and if I had been in that situation I would also be attempting to explain it to you. (But luckily I am in a situation where no one I am supposed to be looking out for is in need of immediate medical attention.) Therefore, I do not expect you to give me the points I would have gotten for dressing formally. I just want you to understand that I am not doing this because I am lazy or attempting to be disrespectful, I am doing this because I want to express my views on this. I would also like to inform you that I am writing this in July, before I know who my teachers will be. This is because I find it to be easier for me to write this before I know my teacher, to help avoid feeling guilty, nervous, uncomfortable, or bothersome while writing it. I am not even sure if I will be required to dress formally for a presentation, but I am assuming so because I was told by my freshman English teacher that we will be having formal presentations for all of high school. Now that all of this has been explained I am going to get to the reasons why I didn’t dress up.
The first reason is that it is simply unfair for students who have families that are struggling economically. If students do not own clothing that meet your description of “formal clothes” they will have to buy new clothes. As you probably know we do have a significant amount of families living here that are under the poverty line, and many of the students here are eligible for a free or reduced priced lunch. If students can hardly afford food how do you expect them to be able to gather enough money to buy new clothes? Assignments like formal presentations are a large reason for “the achievement gap.” Students of all economic backgrounds should be given equal opportunity. When I brought this up to a teacher last year I was told if I can afford the clothes then I shouldn’t worry about it, but as someone who personally can afford it I feel like it is unfair for me to be given a better grade because of that.
The second reason I dislike the idea of students being graded on if their clothes are “formal” or not is because you are giving students points based on their appearance. Are teenagers not already too consumed with the way they dress? I understand that students sometimes where clothing that would be distracting. It is reasonable for a teacher to not want his or her students giving a presentation in a shirt with a sexually suggestive image or a gun printed on the shirt. But for us to not even be able to where some non ripped, appropriately fitted jeans is ridicules (I am aware that I do where ripped jeans and unfitted shirts to school, but I was using that as an example.) If students are to concerned about their appearance they will have trouble concentrating on the actual presentation. It also sends out a materialistic message to students. Is society already not materialistic enough?
There are other reasons I dislike the idea of formal presentations, but those are the main two I wanted to express. Once again I am not doing this because I am to lazy to dress up or because I want to be disrespectful. I typically play along with the school system, I normally do my homework, I study for tests, etc. I do this instead of things relevant to my personal interests, which include music, art, social issues, and many other things that go deeper then texting, shopping and cute boys. But I feel like grading kids on the way they dress is just really unnecessary. Anyways, I would like to thank you for reading this.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I'd thought id post some of the creations i have made to prevent myself from dieing of bordom in class....
School trys to control your life by giving you homework to distract you from the possibility of independent or creative thinking which may lead to rebellion. The simple solution is to bring markers and paper to class and draw when teachers go on a rant. I have used schools boringness against it. I normally hate everything i do but i actually kind of like these....
I will post my demented dollhouse crime scene photos later.
I will post my demented dollhouse crime scene photos later.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
My Brother the Cow.....
So my moms boyfriend isn't fond of spending money on stuff so instead he takes the cds out from the library,burns them into itunes and returns them. The library where i live only has like opera cds and i kept telling him that and he didnt belive me. So he was like "I can find any cd you want from a library" so i gave him cds i thought he'd never find.
Mudhoney-My Brother the Cow
Mother Love Bone-S/T
The Vaselines-The Way of The Vaselines
And then he found them all, what the fuck. He also found this sleepless in seattle thing like a grunge music completmentory. So now i have bands on my ipod i didn't even know exsisted. But i finally got to hear the band Andrew Wood was in before MLB (Malfunkshun).
So the past few days had been interisting socially at school. First when i was whereing my Alice In Chains shirt this dude walks up to me and screams "YEAH ALICE IN CHAINS" and gives the metal sign. Then we are in the computer lab and these guys keep bugging me,like just going up to my keyboard and typing jibberish. So i told them i was a lesbain so they'd leave me alone but that didnt work because they were like "haha vagina hahahaha" so i was like "im not a lesbain i just told you that so you'd leave me alone" then everyone took each others binders and hit each other with them. i think we lost our computer lab privelages.
Mudhoney-My Brother the Cow
Mother Love Bone-S/T
The Vaselines-The Way of The Vaselines
And then he found them all, what the fuck. He also found this sleepless in seattle thing like a grunge music completmentory. So now i have bands on my ipod i didn't even know exsisted. But i finally got to hear the band Andrew Wood was in before MLB (Malfunkshun).
So the past few days had been interisting socially at school. First when i was whereing my Alice In Chains shirt this dude walks up to me and screams "YEAH ALICE IN CHAINS" and gives the metal sign. Then we are in the computer lab and these guys keep bugging me,like just going up to my keyboard and typing jibberish. So i told them i was a lesbain so they'd leave me alone but that didnt work because they were like "haha vagina hahahaha" so i was like "im not a lesbain i just told you that so you'd leave me alone" then everyone took each others binders and hit each other with them. i think we lost our computer lab privelages.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
I have already explained how these people are boring so now i have to explain why they also have low self esteem.
Arrogant sons of bitches run the world. Of course this isn't just an adult thing.When people think of arrogant teens they think of the popular ditz who gets all the boys/girls. Thats actually not a description that fits most kids with big egos. One thing i think people need to know that ego and self esteem are two different things. I know you hear "oh those kids who are popular are insecure." They probably are, most teenagers are. There is another group of people who are probably insecure. Those kids who are obsessed over their grades, why? because they must think they need to have As to assure themselves they are good.
Yesterday one of my teachers read a quote that said something like "Do not rest until your good is better and your better is best." They asked us what we thought the quote meant and I said "it means you should never just be happy with yourself and you should just keep obsessing over all your flaws." Apparently that was a negative interpretation but that is actually a literal interpretation of it.
I have a friend who does kind of poorly in school, actually she kind of sucks at getting good grades and stuff. But socially she is not someone to mess with. When a guy told her she had no tits she choked him and his face turned red, then she let go of him and said "please dont do that". Today at lunch someone else said something rude to her and she kicked him in the balls. That might be called mean but i call it rebelling against gender roles. That is not something someone with no passion or self esteem would do. Someone with no self esteem would just stuff their bras the next day. But according to my teachers people who dont do well in school have no passion or self esteem. I dont really understand that because i think people with low self esteem are the ones who think they needs a certain GPA to be successful. Now i have nothing against people who want to get into a good college to LEARN but most of those people who want to get into Harvard or Yale want to because it leads to a high paying job. Most of the people who are stereotypical nerds who love learning actually dont do very well in classes.
I am also well aware that my last four or so rants have been about this so if the imaginary people who read my blog are getting sick of it they will be happy to know my next rant will probably be about how their should be more girls in rock music or how pot should be legal or another one about how bad music is now.
Arrogant sons of bitches run the world. Of course this isn't just an adult thing.When people think of arrogant teens they think of the popular ditz who gets all the boys/girls. Thats actually not a description that fits most kids with big egos. One thing i think people need to know that ego and self esteem are two different things. I know you hear "oh those kids who are popular are insecure." They probably are, most teenagers are. There is another group of people who are probably insecure. Those kids who are obsessed over their grades, why? because they must think they need to have As to assure themselves they are good.
Yesterday one of my teachers read a quote that said something like "Do not rest until your good is better and your better is best." They asked us what we thought the quote meant and I said "it means you should never just be happy with yourself and you should just keep obsessing over all your flaws." Apparently that was a negative interpretation but that is actually a literal interpretation of it.
I have a friend who does kind of poorly in school, actually she kind of sucks at getting good grades and stuff. But socially she is not someone to mess with. When a guy told her she had no tits she choked him and his face turned red, then she let go of him and said "please dont do that". Today at lunch someone else said something rude to her and she kicked him in the balls. That might be called mean but i call it rebelling against gender roles. That is not something someone with no passion or self esteem would do. Someone with no self esteem would just stuff their bras the next day. But according to my teachers people who dont do well in school have no passion or self esteem. I dont really understand that because i think people with low self esteem are the ones who think they needs a certain GPA to be successful. Now i have nothing against people who want to get into a good college to LEARN but most of those people who want to get into Harvard or Yale want to because it leads to a high paying job. Most of the people who are stereotypical nerds who love learning actually dont do very well in classes.
I am also well aware that my last four or so rants have been about this so if the imaginary people who read my blog are getting sick of it they will be happy to know my next rant will probably be about how their should be more girls in rock music or how pot should be legal or another one about how bad music is now.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
How very very ironic
So at school we are learning about greek philosophers and as soon as the unit started the first thing i thought was "this is ironic". See the greek philosophers all thought differently, something not encouraged in schools. We are all supposed to think alike. In fact i wouldn't even use the word think because thinking results in knowledge, and knowledge technically means understanding and analyzing the world around you, which is also not encouraged.
See in school we dont learn to learn. It works more like this....
memorizing gets good, good grades are not important because they show you have picked up knowledge they are only there for making the school look good and getting into good school. A good school of course is not a school where people challenge the system and think creatively, a good school is a school that costs a lot and gives you a lot of busywork and of course ranks high because the students there can all afford private tutors and dont have to work a job. Then after your done with school now that you have a peace of paper called a degree that determends your worth in society you can get a job, ideal jobs would be working for a cooperation or being a lawyer who represents cooperate organizations. These jobs will pay a lot and that some how makes you happy in life.
but thats probably not what Socrates thought. So why are we learning this? well because freshman learning philosophy makes the school look good. Not because it's interesting, infact they didnt do a very good job draining the interesting parts out of it. See these philosophers would be taught by other philosophers and sometimes DISAGREE with what their teachers said. That in modern times would most likely result in a bad grade.
oh look my grandmother is being racist, how come it's ok for old people to be racist? like john McCain used ethic slurs when talking about asians but when Michelle Obama said "whitey" or something everyone went ballistic..... that was off topic
Anyways i got extended detention for going on yahoo music when i was done with my school work. It was rather boring.
See in school we dont learn to learn. It works more like this....
memorizing gets good, good grades are not important because they show you have picked up knowledge they are only there for making the school look good and getting into good school. A good school of course is not a school where people challenge the system and think creatively, a good school is a school that costs a lot and gives you a lot of busywork and of course ranks high because the students there can all afford private tutors and dont have to work a job. Then after your done with school now that you have a peace of paper called a degree that determends your worth in society you can get a job, ideal jobs would be working for a cooperation or being a lawyer who represents cooperate organizations. These jobs will pay a lot and that some how makes you happy in life.
but thats probably not what Socrates thought. So why are we learning this? well because freshman learning philosophy makes the school look good. Not because it's interesting, infact they didnt do a very good job draining the interesting parts out of it. See these philosophers would be taught by other philosophers and sometimes DISAGREE with what their teachers said. That in modern times would most likely result in a bad grade.
oh look my grandmother is being racist, how come it's ok for old people to be racist? like john McCain used ethic slurs when talking about asians but when Michelle Obama said "whitey" or something everyone went ballistic..... that was off topic
Anyways i got extended detention for going on yahoo music when i was done with my school work. It was rather boring.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
"sheesh Obama won but you can still never stop complaining"
YESSSSSSS
Dont really i still have plenty of complaints
So i spent like 6 hours on an outline for a paper you know outlines are supposed to not take as long as the paper itself.
I want my free dr. pepper whats left of Guns N Roses relesed their cd and dr. pepper said everyone in america whould get a dr pepper and they where not being honest apperantly because first of all you needed internet acsess not everyone has internet. Also the server crashed so like no one chould get there coupons. Apperantly Axl Roses lawyer is mad at them so maybe he will sue and i wont have too haha. Like do you autamaticly get a lawyer when you sign with a major label they all have lawyers sheesh.
So you know i was in the bathroom at school a few weeks ago and i saw this poster for honors club after school i mean what the fuck is that like you just sit there
"I'm in honors"
"really? me too"
"wow bob i'm in the honor roll too!"
"thats such a coincadence we are all in honors!"
I mean its not like honors kids dont have equal rights or something, everyone thinks they are like the stars of the world. I hate those bumper stickers its like "my child is an honor role student" well maybe your child cheats on his/her tests or plagerizes his/her papers or pays a really smart person to do homework for him/her or bribes the teachers or something. Like what about the parent of the dyslexic kid behind you who's kid trys really hard but cant get really good grades becuase the system isn't disigned in the way that they can get the same oppertunates.
You know what else, you get into honor role by getting good grades, that means you can take classes way below your level just to get good grades.
So i decided i'd make a not honors club to show them how pointless their club is.
But then they put me in honor role (i know you really cant tell with my grammer/spelling haha), so there goes anouther great idea.
I mean i dont know how i even got on I guess i am one of the like 6 kids in my humanites class who normally does there homework. See our school is supposed to have this mixed honors kids because apperantly if you put average scoring kids with high scoring kids they normal scoring kids will be like "oh i want to be like these higher scoring kids they are so great." But all the little honors parents where like "I DONT WANT MY KID WITH STUPID PEOPLE!!!!111" and now they all go to the PTSA mettings and bitch about it and the guy who is in charge of this shit who is like this smiley happy guy is probably just like "....k then." So like im probably one of the only kids in the honors whose parents arnt like going ballastic about it.
So i guess i'll admit i was a bit proud of my self for making the honor role but this is apperantly because when it comes to academics i have low self esteem. So by my goal being not to flunk out of school me making the honor role was a plesent suprise this is why i have to think ~negitively~ so i will be plesently supprised when something good happens and not schocked with dissapointment when something bad happens. But then my friends where like "I made the high honor role" which apperantly means they got all As or something i mean all A report cards seem fakeish.
Honors classes are stupid to though, just not as stupid as honor role. The classes are tottaly race segergated because where i live there are like no working class whites the only non rich area is like a working class black/latino area so all the white kids parents went to like law school or something so they insist there kids are put in honors so they will look like they have smart kids when talking with there lawyer/doctor friends. So there are shitloads of black/latino kids in normal classes who chould tottaly be in honors and vise versa.
Also I really whould love if people can stop talking about twighlight now
^my new obbsession i think
Dont really i still have plenty of complaints
So i spent like 6 hours on an outline for a paper you know outlines are supposed to not take as long as the paper itself.
I want my free dr. pepper whats left of Guns N Roses relesed their cd and dr. pepper said everyone in america whould get a dr pepper and they where not being honest apperantly because first of all you needed internet acsess not everyone has internet. Also the server crashed so like no one chould get there coupons. Apperantly Axl Roses lawyer is mad at them so maybe he will sue and i wont have too haha. Like do you autamaticly get a lawyer when you sign with a major label they all have lawyers sheesh.
So you know i was in the bathroom at school a few weeks ago and i saw this poster for honors club after school i mean what the fuck is that like you just sit there
"I'm in honors"
"really? me too"
"wow bob i'm in the honor roll too!"
"thats such a coincadence we are all in honors!"
I mean its not like honors kids dont have equal rights or something, everyone thinks they are like the stars of the world. I hate those bumper stickers its like "my child is an honor role student" well maybe your child cheats on his/her tests or plagerizes his/her papers or pays a really smart person to do homework for him/her or bribes the teachers or something. Like what about the parent of the dyslexic kid behind you who's kid trys really hard but cant get really good grades becuase the system isn't disigned in the way that they can get the same oppertunates.
You know what else, you get into honor role by getting good grades, that means you can take classes way below your level just to get good grades.
So i decided i'd make a not honors club to show them how pointless their club is.
But then they put me in honor role (i know you really cant tell with my grammer/spelling haha), so there goes anouther great idea.
I mean i dont know how i even got on I guess i am one of the like 6 kids in my humanites class who normally does there homework. See our school is supposed to have this mixed honors kids because apperantly if you put average scoring kids with high scoring kids they normal scoring kids will be like "oh i want to be like these higher scoring kids they are so great." But all the little honors parents where like "I DONT WANT MY KID WITH STUPID PEOPLE!!!!111" and now they all go to the PTSA mettings and bitch about it and the guy who is in charge of this shit who is like this smiley happy guy is probably just like "....k then." So like im probably one of the only kids in the honors whose parents arnt like going ballastic about it.
So i guess i'll admit i was a bit proud of my self for making the honor role but this is apperantly because when it comes to academics i have low self esteem. So by my goal being not to flunk out of school me making the honor role was a plesent suprise this is why i have to think ~negitively~ so i will be plesently supprised when something good happens and not schocked with dissapointment when something bad happens. But then my friends where like "I made the high honor role" which apperantly means they got all As or something i mean all A report cards seem fakeish.
Honors classes are stupid to though, just not as stupid as honor role. The classes are tottaly race segergated because where i live there are like no working class whites the only non rich area is like a working class black/latino area so all the white kids parents went to like law school or something so they insist there kids are put in honors so they will look like they have smart kids when talking with there lawyer/doctor friends. So there are shitloads of black/latino kids in normal classes who chould tottaly be in honors and vise versa.
Also I really whould love if people can stop talking about twighlight now
^my new obbsession i think
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
My music teacher hates us
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Music: St. Ides Heaven- Elliott Smith
So like my music teacher has some wierd thing agianst us and she always tells us we can't sing. And now she is making come during art class to practice. She also likes to single us out, but mostly the ones who can sing. Now she is mad at us for not singing loud enouth, I mean if you tell kids they can't sing then they are not going to sing loud obv. So now we have to preform infront of like 20 people and it makes me real sad.
On lighter not i also got new flannels and i look quite ~grunge~ only now other people are wereing them cuz they are fashionable now and this makes me sad. Maybe grunge is coming back
also I'm pretty sure i'm marrying this man
yes he is going to fall in love with me when i meet him
Mood:
Music: St. Ides Heaven- Elliott Smith
So like my music teacher has some wierd thing agianst us and she always tells us we can't sing. And now she is making come during art class to practice. She also likes to single us out, but mostly the ones who can sing. Now she is mad at us for not singing loud enouth, I mean if you tell kids they can't sing then they are not going to sing loud obv. So now we have to preform infront of like 20 people and it makes me real sad.
On lighter not i also got new flannels and i look quite ~grunge~ only now other people are wereing them cuz they are fashionable now and this makes me sad. Maybe grunge is coming back
also I'm pretty sure i'm marrying this man
yes he is going to fall in love with me when i meet him
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
The Big C”- Community or Conformity?
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The school I attend is very “community” based. Many of the rules that most of the students find unnecessary are apparently for the “community” or “the big C”. No ipods, no cell phones at lunch, etc. All because we are supposed to socialize. Now I have no problem with people socializing, my problem is some people are not always in the mood to “socialize”. Or sometimes people are not with their friends at the moment. Today at lunch my friends all went to the social studies room to catch up on their projects. So I sat alone, I am a quick eater so for about 15 minutes I sat and did nothing. Meanwhile the kids who are the ideal members of the community all giggled and screamed and made stupid jokes. Interestingly enough, the kids who are more active members of the “community” are more likely to talk in class, cheat on their “boyfriends” or “girlfriends”, and have trouble working in groups because they just want to gossip the whole time.
A few weeks ago we had those anti drug people come. The presentation was ridicules for the same reasons they always are, they give you no reasons not to do drugs they just tell you to “say no”, they over dramatize the social pressure, and they try to be “cool”. However, there was one part that was rather interesting, they asked for students to come up and act out a situation with them. About seven girls came up, in the scene one girl was trying to get her friend to drink and said to all the kids “see it’s good, try it!” all of the “cool” kids nervously giggled and tried it, but my friend said “no you guys are stupid, I’m going to leave and if you get caught that’s not my problem.” Afterwards they asked “now would you really drink?” and of course they all said no but I am pretty sure that a few unnamed people in that group would.
Now if you think about it, we are supposed to do what the “community” does. I know the teachers don’t intend to include stuff like drinking, but when kids are used to “following the community” they will probably not take the time to pause and think about what they are doing, they will just follow. Maybe regret it later, but they can’t go back in time. Another example is a few days ago kids were using the music room without permission. When the teachers asked them why they said “everyone else was there so I thought it was ok”. They are simply used to following the community, that’s the way their minds have been trained.
Of course I’m not saying outgoing people are all mindless conformists, but I am thinking perhaps because they want acceptance from their peers so much they are more likely to follow them in whatever they do, both good and bad. Perhaps we should be taught to follow what we think is the right thing to do instead of following the “community” because they could very well be doing something we are not supposed to do or something that isn’t a very good idea.
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Music: Things behind the Sun- Nick Drake
The school I attend is very “community” based. Many of the rules that most of the students find unnecessary are apparently for the “community” or “the big C”. No ipods, no cell phones at lunch, etc. All because we are supposed to socialize. Now I have no problem with people socializing, my problem is some people are not always in the mood to “socialize”. Or sometimes people are not with their friends at the moment. Today at lunch my friends all went to the social studies room to catch up on their projects. So I sat alone, I am a quick eater so for about 15 minutes I sat and did nothing. Meanwhile the kids who are the ideal members of the community all giggled and screamed and made stupid jokes. Interestingly enough, the kids who are more active members of the “community” are more likely to talk in class, cheat on their “boyfriends” or “girlfriends”, and have trouble working in groups because they just want to gossip the whole time.
A few weeks ago we had those anti drug people come. The presentation was ridicules for the same reasons they always are, they give you no reasons not to do drugs they just tell you to “say no”, they over dramatize the social pressure, and they try to be “cool”. However, there was one part that was rather interesting, they asked for students to come up and act out a situation with them. About seven girls came up, in the scene one girl was trying to get her friend to drink and said to all the kids “see it’s good, try it!” all of the “cool” kids nervously giggled and tried it, but my friend said “no you guys are stupid, I’m going to leave and if you get caught that’s not my problem.” Afterwards they asked “now would you really drink?” and of course they all said no but I am pretty sure that a few unnamed people in that group would.
Now if you think about it, we are supposed to do what the “community” does. I know the teachers don’t intend to include stuff like drinking, but when kids are used to “following the community” they will probably not take the time to pause and think about what they are doing, they will just follow. Maybe regret it later, but they can’t go back in time. Another example is a few days ago kids were using the music room without permission. When the teachers asked them why they said “everyone else was there so I thought it was ok”. They are simply used to following the community, that’s the way their minds have been trained.
Of course I’m not saying outgoing people are all mindless conformists, but I am thinking perhaps because they want acceptance from their peers so much they are more likely to follow them in whatever they do, both good and bad. Perhaps we should be taught to follow what we think is the right thing to do instead of following the “community” because they could very well be doing something we are not supposed to do or something that isn’t a very good idea.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
My social studies teacher hates me
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My social studies teacher gave me a really bad report card. She said I rarely turn in homework and I am often late for class. Now maybe the reason I rarely turn in homework is due to the fact that I have been missing a lot of class lately and she doesn’t GIVE ME the homework to make up, and I am not often late for class, maybe sometimes but not "often". She also likes to scare me about high school despite the fact that I already get the fucking point and fell like crying whenever the subject comes up. We are doing a decade project and I asked for the 90s, 60s, or 70s. But she will most likely give me a shitty decade like the 80s. I remember when Social Studies was my favorite class.
I got a very shitty report card, I do not achieve the standard in math. I did score in the top 4% for writing skills though, but no one cares about that and it doesn’t get you anywhere, plus people don't even like my writing.
Mood:
Music:none
My social studies teacher gave me a really bad report card. She said I rarely turn in homework and I am often late for class. Now maybe the reason I rarely turn in homework is due to the fact that I have been missing a lot of class lately and she doesn’t GIVE ME the homework to make up, and I am not often late for class, maybe sometimes but not "often". She also likes to scare me about high school despite the fact that I already get the fucking point and fell like crying whenever the subject comes up. We are doing a decade project and I asked for the 90s, 60s, or 70s. But she will most likely give me a shitty decade like the 80s. I remember when Social Studies was my favorite class.
I got a very shitty report card, I do not achieve the standard in math. I did score in the top 4% for writing skills though, but no one cares about that and it doesn’t get you anywhere, plus people don't even like my writing.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
"high school will be better"
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Mood:
Music:none, my mother is sleeping.
You know how sometimes people lie to children just to get them to do what you want them to or to shut up? Well High School is one of the things people like to lie about. The interasting thing is, they can't make up their mind on what to say when lieing. First i'll get this rant about how hard high school will be and how we are all going to fail, then someone says "high school will be better" when you complain about everyone being boring.
I know that they seem to have to lie to us but I wish they'd at least do a better job lieing. I mean they need to make up their minds. Are they gonna scare us and tell us it's gonna suck or are they gonna tell us it will be great? I mean I'm not going to belive them anyway when they say it's gonna be great but there is no use in scaring the shit out of everyone. Are they like trying to make us suicidal or something? If they want us to work hard telling us we are all going to fail might not work. I mean if your going to fail anways why try?
Mood:
Music:none, my mother is sleeping.
You know how sometimes people lie to children just to get them to do what you want them to or to shut up? Well High School is one of the things people like to lie about. The interasting thing is, they can't make up their mind on what to say when lieing. First i'll get this rant about how hard high school will be and how we are all going to fail, then someone says "high school will be better" when you complain about everyone being boring.
I know that they seem to have to lie to us but I wish they'd at least do a better job lieing. I mean they need to make up their minds. Are they gonna scare us and tell us it's gonna suck or are they gonna tell us it will be great? I mean I'm not going to belive them anyway when they say it's gonna be great but there is no use in scaring the shit out of everyone. Are they like trying to make us suicidal or something? If they want us to work hard telling us we are all going to fail might not work. I mean if your going to fail anways why try?
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