Yayyyy its about time my grades start sucking.

Havn't blogged in a while....
My grades suck now, and you know what? Thats fine. Fuck it.

Im failing science, because i was fucking sick and i cant make up all the fucking work right away. Well i could but im not dedicating my life to it. Im not even going to pretend to be like any of those little overachievers anymore, because even if i wanted to i couldn't keep up with them, so why should i pretend? I dont go to lunch anymore, i go to one of the art rooms, and its so much better, i dont have to listen to the same conversations about how hard physics is or how they are going to take 5 ap classes next year over and over again. One chick was complaining about being in honors history, instead of AP. Because shes taking AP math, science, English, and whatever fucking language she's in. Apparently thats not good enough. So by those standards im equivalent to a house fly with no legs that lives on a piece of dog shit. So i decided that hanging out with these kids next year will make me crazy, so i decided to find a new group of friends, its going pretty well, because i found people who are smart but not assholes about it.

And you know what the sad thing is? Some people think our school is ghetto, because its not ALL rich white kids of CEOs, only about half. And the other towns in the area are about 80-98% rich white kids of CEOs. Those people in those towns are fucking crazy. Like everyone is like that individual mentioned above with "only" 4 ap classes. Plus these kids use drugs like they are free samples of chocolates or something, because they have so much freakin money. These are the kinds of kids who have partys in their basements where everyone is on ecstasy and end up getting/giving a blow job, and their parents are upstairs and know whats going on and are just like "ohhhhh you crazy kids!" But anyways....

Also, i'm in this group at school for depressed kids, and one was talking about how hard her life is, and it actually is a situation that is difficult, it wasnt just like "oh i lost my phone" but your supposed to like give support to peers and this other girl was like "oh well thats real life, your gonna have bosses worse then your teachers and you cant just ditch work cuz you gotta make money. No ones gonna take care of you in the real world." I dont know if its just me but i dont think that is very helpful. I was like "yeah but you have more control when your an adult" and the chick is like "hell no you have less". I mean she's probably right in most cases, but in some of these particular cases its not really true.

Lots of shit, so i will summarize it.

New musical obsession=The Doors

New favorite class=This art history combo class im taking this semester

Site im currently addicted to= www.polyvore.com (totally stupid i know)

Shows i started watching (yes, just what i need, more tv)= Skins, Freaks and Geeks, My so called life.

Recently made goal=Befriend the so called "burnouts" because they are not up their own asses like almost everyone else at my school, and they seem funny. Plus some of them dont even do drugs, they just hang out with people you do. (yes kids, those dare commercials you saw are PRETEND! you can be friends with someone who makes different choices then you and you are capable of respecting one and others choices!)

Things i forgot i liked and remembered i liked again=The sound of birds chirping, Hippie dresses, yogurt covered raisins, incense, people with personalitys.

yup...

I have already explained how these people are boring so now i have to explain why they also have low self esteem.

Arrogant sons of bitches run the world. Of course this isn't just an adult thing.When people think of arrogant teens they think of the popular ditz who gets all the boys/girls. Thats actually not a description that fits most kids with big egos. One thing i think people need to know that ego and self esteem are two different things. I know you hear "oh those kids who are popular are insecure." They probably are, most teenagers are. There is another group of people who are probably insecure. Those kids who are obsessed over their grades, why? because they must think they need to have As to assure themselves they are good.

Yesterday one of my teachers read a quote that said something like "Do not rest until your good is better and your better is best." They asked us what we thought the quote meant and I said "it means you should never just be happy with yourself and you should just keep obsessing over all your flaws." Apparently that was a negative interpretation but that is actually a literal interpretation of it.

I have a friend who does kind of poorly in school, actually she kind of sucks at getting good grades and stuff. But socially she is not someone to mess with. When a guy told her she had no tits she choked him and his face turned red, then she let go of him and said "please dont do that". Today at lunch someone else said something rude to her and she kicked him in the balls. That might be called mean but i call it rebelling against gender roles. That is not something someone with no passion or self esteem would do. Someone with no self esteem would just stuff their bras the next day. But according to my teachers people who dont do well in school have no passion or self esteem. I dont really understand that because i think people with low self esteem are the ones who think they needs a certain GPA to be successful. Now i have nothing against people who want to get into a good college to LEARN but most of those people who want to get into Harvard or Yale want to because it leads to a high paying job. Most of the people who are stereotypical nerds who love learning actually dont do very well in classes.

I am also well aware that my last four or so rants have been about this so if the imaginary people who read my blog are getting sick of it they will be happy to know my next rant will probably be about how their should be more girls in rock music or how pot should be legal or another one about how bad music is now.