Viva student revolution!

At school we always have these stupid ass assemblies about something like how evil drugs are, how if you get stalked on the internet its your fault for using it, how cheating on tests is immoral, etc. They are loud, the sound quality is bad, they only let us sit in half of the place all squished together when the other half is completely empty. And 80% of the time is just the dean yelling at us. We had one last week, and i had a plan to sneak out with someone, at the last minute he backed out, thats fine, its none of my business if others go or not. I thought it could never hurt to just check if any doors were unlocked, and i ended up running into a group of kids looking for unlocked doors, i followed them for about five minutes until i heard a kid shouting "YES!" I ran out. And there were about 70 other kids, and probably another 100 at the other open door. It was cold and rainy outside but i ran for about 4 minutes, then when i felt safe i started walking home, but i went the wrong way....oops

I ended up calling my mom for instructions, and the first thing she said was "when you ditch school it is customary not to call your mom asking for directions" turns out she was more mad at me for going the wrong way than ditching. I ended up in another town eventually, and i probably ended up walking at least 3 miles in total, but eventually i got home. Still before i would have if i stayed.

And you know what the best part was? we won this time. We, the students fucking won. Because so many parents were calling the school saying that their kids had doctors appointments during that time, and so many kids snuck out, and so many people wrote complaining about how pointless it was and so many people couldn't get everything organized that the school announced they will be discontinuing the assembles. Yes kids got in trouble and yes they are trying to track down the people who snuck out so they can get them in trouble, but in the long term we won.

I still cant believe the students actually fucking won.

No detentions or anything so far, but on the morning announcements the guy in charge of our school decided to take an extra 3 minutes or so to make us feel guilty. He was talking about how these were supposed to make our school better and special and so and so. And then he started going off topic and quoted Martin Luther King and some holocaust survivor who said something like "you don't know the privileges you have until they are taken away" and i thought that was totally inappropriate because the guy was obviously referring to basic human essentials like food and for him to bring up the holocaust to try to make us feel bad was offensive, especially considering our school has a significant Jewish population (im not sure about any statistics, but im guessing around 15-20% or so of the school is Jewish) and their grandparents or so could have been holocaust survivors. Now nobody listens to the morning announcements, but i did and i asked some other kids if they thought it was inappropriate and they said none of them really listened, so i asked some teachers to clarify what he said (they couldn't actually say what he said was stupid so i asked for clarification to bring the subject up) of course most of them said things like "i didn't hear, i was in the bathroom" but one teacher (special ed, go figure) did admit he thought it was a dumb time to bring that up.

And yeah my Mom is pretty understanding about me hating school and stuff, she knows i am a decent student and i dont ditch class and that i act appropriately when im challenging something so she wasn't to mad because she figured if it was important i wouldn't ditch.

Check back in the next few days for me ranting about how the pilgrims were douche bags .

I forgot i had this thing....

I forgot i had a blog

You know what pisses me off? when homework sheets are all like "answer on a seperate sheet of paper" when there is plenty of room on the back or even at the bottom of the page. And then when you answer it on the back teachers get all pissed. I mean how wasteful is that?

Anyways, i thought these where amusing, i dont know if they are real or not.

lots of stuff

My computer has been acting really strange lately, it keeps getting these viruses. My antivirus sucks so i cant remove some of them and it has like 300 cookies and is really slow.i got a new one but i have no idea how to set it up and i don't know how to get my itunes into it. My dad at least figured how to get this one temporarily working.

For the first time in my life i am actually showing some interest in boys. I actually thought i was a lesbian for a while in 7th grade but then i realized i dont like chicks ether. Sadly the guys at my school are mostly douchy and some of them still havn't finished puberty (They are like 15 wtf is taking them so long). I dont think they like me either because when they act douchy i get irritated with them and i dont look like Megan Fox who is apparently like a shrine for teenage boys who are just starting to grow facial hair.

Most of the rocker kids or the artsy kids are juniors and seniors and they smoke before and after school. I know this because when i take the bus i see a bunch of people with like ramones shirts and mohawks or guys with long hair smoking when i am walking to where to bus stops. My friend (or maybe i can refer to her as an ex friend because its impossible to keep in touch with people who you don't have classes/lunch with at my school because its so freaking big) hangs out with them even though she overdoes the whole skater thing, listens to normal pop music, and is convinced she can't wear skirts because it will make her unfeminist or something. I In a way i wish i was older but i am actually scared to death of Junior year with all the tests and stuff. The annoying thing is last year there were some cool sophomores and they told me they liked my AIC shirt and stuff but this year the kids are still like they where last year. I guess my grade is just boring.

Apparently we are supposed to start thinking of colleges now which is strange because that is kind of supposed to be a junior year thing,actually last year they told us to think about in. If i remember right they actually asked me what college i want to go to in 7th grade and i was just like "WTF IM NOT EVEN IN HIGH SCHOOL YET!" i bet by the time my generation is having kids they will have have like a college and career guy at the ultrasound thingy saying like "Hmm, i think this looks like a Harvard baby. Ok next is baby #20194572, well this baby should definitely look into applying for university of Wisconsin. Ok and baby number #20194573, well i hate to break it to you ma'am but your baby looks kind of dim, at best he will be able to get into a community college." Its like everyone wants genious babys and you see all this advertisements for things like teaching a 2 year old how to read. My moms sisters were over a couple of months ago and they have like 2-11 year olds and they where like "Oh Laura are your kids on the honor role? Its like we havn't even gotten our my child is an honor student bumper stickers yet its ridiculous. Oh Julie i'm so glad your sending your kids to a catholic school because if they go to a public school they will do drugs and evil things like that." Honestly its so stupid. I feel like i am rebelling against my social class/suburban household just by typing "dont" instead of "don't".

Thats all i feel like typing. 3 day weekend this week so im going to clean out my backpack and go though useless junk i forgot i had in my room.

Schools back

So far none of my teachers seem like complete douche bags actually. Of course you need to give them time before you decide. Its going ok so far, but i forgot my locker combination so i have to carry everything in my back pack and i look like a moron with it. I seem a little more comfortable with myself though, im not really scared of talking to people i don't know very well as much as i was last year. I really hate passing periods though because everyone is crashing into you and shoving you and stuff. That always makes me really nervous.

Anyways, i saw Pearl Jam on the 23rd, which was defiantly one of the best parts of my summer. I tryed to take videos but they looked like ants from where i was and the sound quality on my camera sucks. In fact it said to audio recordings on my ticket so i just did it to see if anyone noticed (no one did). But it was really fun and they where great. I also spend last weekend in Madison Wisconsin, which is defiantly one of the best places in the Midwest. I actually found a good cd store which had some stuff like Babes In Toyland and L7. Then the guy working at the place asked me if i remembered some video from like 1991. I guess i look 30 something to him, maybe its because i was wearing my glasses which makes me look more mature.

But i have decided i need to make another list. I dont know if anyone else gets this but you know that feeling when you hear a song that for some reason makes you like drop what your thinking about and your stomach just feels like its going to sink? Like they are normally sad songs but not always, that just suddenly change your mood. I am going to make a list of songs that do that to me because im stuck at my dads house and there is nothing better to do here.

God Am-Alice In Chains
Backwater-Meat Puppets
You know your Right-Nirvana
Color Bars-Elliott Smith
I believe in symmetry-Bright Eyes
Pennyroyal Tea-Nirvana
Pretty Noose-Soundgarden
Yellow Ledbetter-Pearl Jam
Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns-Mother Love Bone
Desecration Smile-Red Hot Chili Peppers
Society-Eddie Vedder
Nutshell-Alice In Chains
Brother-Alice In Chains
Long Gone Day-Mad Season
A fond Farewell-Elliott Smith
Sludge Factory- Alice In Chains
Old Age-Nirvana
Doll Parts-Hole
No Ceiling-Eddie Vedder
Man of Golden Words-Mother Love Bone
Junk Bond Trader-Elliott Smith
Got me Wrong-Alice In Chains
Butterfly-Screaming Trees
Losing my Religion-R.E.M
St Ives Heaven-Elliott Smith
It all Dies anyways-The Gits
Pretty (Ugly Before)-Elliott Smith
Stargazer-Mother Love Bone
Over the Hills and Far Away-Led Zeppelin
Galaxie-Blind Melon
Angel in the Snow-Elliott Smith
Dollar Bill-Screaming Trees
Danny Callahan-Conor Oberst
Coming Up Roses-Elliott Smith
And the Wind Crys Mary-Jimi Hendrix
Down in A Hole-Alice In Chains

And there are more but im forgetting them. So im just wondering if those songs do that to other people, or any songs for that matter.

Umm, oh yeah LA

LA was pretty cool. I was actually not very into the idea of going there instead of Colorado because i thought it would be really smoggy and full of earthquakes, forest fires, and fake boobs. But it wasn't like that at all.Venice beach was the best. Its great people watching and people go walking around with no shoes on smoking pot freely (even though its technically illegal for non medical purposes.) California is so much more open, like here you cant even get marijuana for medical reasons and gay marriage wasnt even on the ballet or anything. I also find hills and stuff really pretty because we dont have many in the Midwest. We didn't stay very close to the coast so it was really hot. The day we got their it was like 106 degrees F, but the house had good AC (unlike ours, its either really hot or really cold in our house) and there was a pool in the backyard. The first day it was actually so hot that when the pool water splashed onto the cement it made a sizzling noise! Last time it got over 100 hot here for more then like 3 days like 600 people died, but thats because here it gets humid so it dosn't cool down at night (and it feels really gross when its hot out). And the really great part was there where literately no misquotes. In the midwest you can hardly go out from like 6-8:30 pm because of all the misquotes.But i guess its to dry for them there. The funny thing about California is there are health warnings everywhere though, they have these signs at all the restaurants that say "WARNING, FOOD SERVED HERE IS KNOWN TO CAUSE CANCER BY THE STATE OF CALIFORNIA" because i guess everything causes cancer there. In Hollywood there was a store that sold all band shirts and posters and i got a RHCP shirt and i think my family bought me a Alice In Chains poster for my birthday because they saw me looking at it and then my mom told me not to look at what they where buying. I also like my LA relatives more then most of my Illinois relatives, they are less loud and dont interrupt people as much. They also have more interesting storys about things like evil nuns.

I might post to pictures i took later if i remember, but i do think i put some of them on flickr.

I am writing this in advance.

Long time no post. I just got back from LA, Venice beach is awesome! i will write more about that later but when i was making lemonade at 10:30 (i forgot colbert was on, damn time zones)i had the sudden urge to write this. Basically, my school has these things called "formal presentations" where a large amount of your grade (20% i think?) depends on if you are dressed "formally". And that pisses me off....

Why I will not be dressing up for the next “formal presentation”
I will give this to the teacher next time we have a “formal presentation”

Dear future teacher,

First of all I would like to thank you for reading this. A lot of teachers don’t seem to communicate effectively with their students or listen to the suggestions or concerns of their students. I know some teachers probably wouldn’t read something a student wrote explaining why they did not follow a rule. That being said, I am aware that this is a school with no exceptions to the rules. This is a school where a student not doing his or her homework because she or he doesn’t feel like it and a student not doing their homework because their younger sibling got hurt and needs to be taken to a doctor. Do I think that is fair? Of course not, it disgusts me, and if I had been in that situation I would also be attempting to explain it to you. (But luckily I am in a situation where no one I am supposed to be looking out for is in need of immediate medical attention.) Therefore, I do not expect you to give me the points I would have gotten for dressing formally. I just want you to understand that I am not doing this because I am lazy or attempting to be disrespectful, I am doing this because I want to express my views on this. I would also like to inform you that I am writing this in July, before I know who my teachers will be. This is because I find it to be easier for me to write this before I know my teacher, to help avoid feeling guilty, nervous, uncomfortable, or bothersome while writing it. I am not even sure if I will be required to dress formally for a presentation, but I am assuming so because I was told by my freshman English teacher that we will be having formal presentations for all of high school. Now that all of this has been explained I am going to get to the reasons why I didn’t dress up.
The first reason is that it is simply unfair for students who have families that are struggling economically. If students do not own clothing that meet your description of “formal clothes” they will have to buy new clothes. As you probably know we do have a significant amount of families living here that are under the poverty line, and many of the students here are eligible for a free or reduced priced lunch. If students can hardly afford food how do you expect them to be able to gather enough money to buy new clothes? Assignments like formal presentations are a large reason for “the achievement gap.” Students of all economic backgrounds should be given equal opportunity. When I brought this up to a teacher last year I was told if I can afford the clothes then I shouldn’t worry about it, but as someone who personally can afford it I feel like it is unfair for me to be given a better grade because of that.
The second reason I dislike the idea of students being graded on if their clothes are “formal” or not is because you are giving students points based on their appearance. Are teenagers not already too consumed with the way they dress? I understand that students sometimes where clothing that would be distracting. It is reasonable for a teacher to not want his or her students giving a presentation in a shirt with a sexually suggestive image or a gun printed on the shirt. But for us to not even be able to where some non ripped, appropriately fitted jeans is ridicules (I am aware that I do where ripped jeans and unfitted shirts to school, but I was using that as an example.) If students are to concerned about their appearance they will have trouble concentrating on the actual presentation. It also sends out a materialistic message to students. Is society already not materialistic enough?
There are other reasons I dislike the idea of formal presentations, but those are the main two I wanted to express. Once again I am not doing this because I am to lazy to dress up or because I want to be disrespectful. I typically play along with the school system, I normally do my homework, I study for tests, etc. I do this instead of things relevant to my personal interests, which include music, art, social issues, and many other things that go deeper then texting, shopping and cute boys. But I feel like grading kids on the way they dress is just really unnecessary. Anyways, I would like to thank you for reading this.

Cause I heard it in the wind,And I saw it in the sky,And I thought it was the end,And I thought it was the 4th of July.

All my friends from school that i like to hang out with (that only being like 3 people)are in summerschool. I need to talk to someone. Yesterday we had a 4th of july party and my mom invited people i don't know which i hate, she always does that. My friends actually came though, mostly just because she is friends with some of their parents. But one of my friends wanted to play with the little neighbor kiddies because they are cute so i had to explain to them why the balls (no not those kinds of balls) had tape with names of celebertys on them. See last year my friends and i named them and raced them down the slide. Jon Stewert was the winner of all the races but my friend kept saying it was johnny depp. So instead of playing with fingerpaint or whatever your supposed to do with children we read the name tags to them and so it ended up being like "Thats Eddie Vedder, Thats Axl Rose, Thats Bush, Thats Stephen Colbert" so now the little kids know how to say Eddie Vedder. It also rained during the parade and i was cold as hell. My brother kept verbally harassing all the people in the parade, like these people had those smelly old cars and he was like "THATS BAD FOR THE ENVIROMENT YOU STUPID BUNGHOLES" did i mention he uses the word bunghole a lot? (He repeats everything from tv. He also likes to sing "Black Hole Sun" now. Even though he hates music, he only listenes to anime theme songs that are annoying as hell. He is probably going to grow up to be one of those weird anime nerds who watches like anime porn.) The republicans and democrats always go in the parade and the republicans are mostly really old. The democrats where not here this time, probably because of the rain (the old republicans had a bus).

Also people would leave the door open during the party so we have tons of bugs now, mice probably got back in to. I have tons of bugbites all over me. My moms friends are to carefree to notice that bugs will eat us.

Now im having my realitives over for dinner again, but mostly only the annoying ones who dont let us discuss the outside world.

Mice, Pokemon, and Michael Jackson.

A few days ago i found a mouse in my bathroom and i screamed and my mom and brother and I tryed to get rid of it. But then the mouse walked up near me and i was like "AH NO DONT KILL IT IT'S SOOOOO CUTE!" So we trapped it under and garbage can and it eventually died. The next day my brother kept saying he saw more so we brought my neighbors cat to our house to kill them, the cat was here for two hours and he was more interested in playing with my keys than killing mice so i picked him up and started walking to the door. And then guess what was near the door? A mouse. So i let him chase it and he seemed to think it was a toy, he kept putting it in his mouth, spitting it out, and chasing it and catching it again. Eventually we trapped it under a container and the cat kept trying to get to it. He didn't want to go back home and clawed to the carpet when we tryed to pull him off because he liked watching the mouse. I think he scared them all away.

I found my brothers old gameboy and he let me start a new pokemon game. I am in the hoeen reagon for this game and the starter pokemon are Torchic, Treeko, and Mudkip. I wanted to get a torchic because they are my favorite but my brother made me get a mudkip for some dumb reason. Mudkips are cool to though, for all of you with lack of pokemon knowledge these are the 3.

Mudkip


Torchic


Treeko


Also if you hate Pokemon it is most likely because of the dumbass character Ash. He makes simple situations very complex and he is crap at catching and raising Pokemon and is obviously a fraud because

A. His pokemon know more then four attacks
B. His pokemon evolve in the middle of a battle
C. His Pikachus electric attacks effect rock pokemon

In fact if Ash Didn't have his pervert friend who is obviously a weirdo for hanging out with children all the time to help him he would probably be dead. Also Misty is way cooler then all ashes other girlfriends and the show has sucked sense they got rid of her. Team rocket should also win something for there determination. And Pikachu is a fat yellow wombat that Ash has enslaved. Speaking of wombats, apparently they got caused crop circles in Tasmania or something because they were eating the poppys grown and getting high and running around in circles.

And also RIP to Michael Jackson, although i cant say i was ever a fan and during my lifetime he has been known as a creep rather then a pop star. But he was talented.

In attempt to keep music alive

Now that a few people actually read my blog I feel the need to share some free downloads from a few sites. These are legal and i have never got any spyware from them (i'd still scan for virus's just in case, i cant be 100% sure). Most of these are newer realises from 80s/90s alternative bands but a few are modern bands that don't suck. This took me a few hours to find these songs so dont expect for me to do this a lot.

Sebadoh

Download: 'Soul And Fire' (Acoustic Demo) (MP3)

Mudhoney
Download: 'I'm Now' (MP3)

Rancid
Download: 'Last One to Die' (MP3)

Foo Fighters (Arcade Fire cover)
Keep The Car Running

Fucked Up (modern band but still pretty good, punk rock sound)
No Epiphany
Crusades
David Comes To Life
Twice Born

Letters to Cleo
Awake
Here & Now

Jay Reatard (Once again newer artist but still good)
It Ain't Gonna Save Me

Meat Puppets
Disappear
Rotten Shame

Nine Inch Nails
Nine Inch Nails

Free Kitten
Download: 'Seasick' (MP3)

Dinosaur Jr.
I Want You To Know

Pissed Jeans (band that kind of sounds like Flipper/Early Nirvana)
People Person
I've Still Got You (Ice Cream)

Sonic Youth
Sacred Trickster

The Breeders
Fate To Fatal
Bang On

Things i should do this summer

Because the children at camp are always evil and because i dont feel like taking any courses over the summer this year i will have to do things

I will edit this list a lot but this is just to remind me...

[]Clean my room
[]Go to thrift stores and buy new stuff because my cloths are getting warn out
[]Experament with art styles other then psycedelic
[]Learn to play the bass guitar decently
[]break the habit of pulling my hair out when im nervous
[]take a ceramics class outside of school
[]Make one of those model kind things of some land scape or something
[]enjoy the outdoors
[]start exsercising regularly
[]take more weird photos of demented dolls and shit
[]dumpster dive (paying for stuff sucks)
[]Volenteer at a soup kitchen
Learn Basic knowlige of...
[]Hip Hop (way back when in the 80s/90s hip hop actually had meaning to it)
[]Reagge Music (it sounds summery)
[]Blues/early rock and roll
[]Surreal art
[]Social skills/not making an ass out of myself
Advance my knowlige in...
[]Getting free music (Sorry Lars, but your already a millionaire)
[]Classic rock
[]punk rock
[]metal
[]modern music that dosn't suck

Pearl Jam is the last band i thought would do this.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20090602/music_nm/us_pearljam_1

I cannot believe this, am i reading this wrong? How can Pearl Jam be in an ad for a big corporation? I mean they just said they are gonna release their new album independently, so i assumed they were on the anti corporate road, and now this. I mean ok i can understand why they would want to get their music "out there" but honestly, this really upsets me. These are the guys who sued and boycotted ticketmaster even though it ruined their career for a few years, these are the guys who refused to make music videos. Now this, this just goes against what they stand for. I always had so much faith in them not doing the same thing as Chris Cornell. I have always thought "Eddie may be preachy and have way to many rants onstage about politics,but at least we know they wont kiss corporate ass". I mean i could imagine a lot of bands doing this, but this is upsetting to me, just because it goes against everything they stand for. And now I'm scared, what if they do take the Chris Cornell path? Someone please tell me that this is a joke, someone please tell me i am reading this wrong.

Establishment..

Purpose of assignment: to get a good grade on this so then I can get into AP classes which looks good on college applications and not sleep or have any free time to pursue my own interests which the school system falsely assumes include smoking pot and having unprotected sex so then I can get into a “good” college not as in a good one for encouraging creative thought but one that costs a lot and gives tons of busy work so then after college I can get a good job which means not a job I enjoy but one that pays a lot so then I can make a lot of money and supposedly this will make me happy.

I am sorry that i didn't choose Woodrow Wilson (who was actually a white supremicist), Abraham Lincoln, Henry Ford or some establishment figure like that to write a paper on. I have a feeling they are going to give me a hard time about this. I would just rather write about a radical cokehead who tryed to use phycic powers to lift the pentagon, nominated a pig for president, and sent joints to random people.

And im so sorry if i forget something super important like a comma or adding an E to some word that has no good reason to include an E. I know that is much more important then the actual content of the paper.

And i would also like to apoligise to socitey for my messy unevenly cut hair, non perkey personality, rejection of joining fads like twilight or scene kids, unpopularity, tendency to repet stuff, dislike of most modern mainstream music, stong opinions, uglyness, lack of charisma, obsession with grunge music, bad spelling skills, and hatered of what is most likely one of most people my ages favorite bands.

I just needed to get that out. Thank you and have a nice evening and enjoy the nice weather before the bugs invade.

I'd thought id post some of the creations i have made to prevent myself from dieing of bordom in class....

School trys to control your life by giving you homework to distract you from the possibility of independent or creative thinking which may lead to rebellion. The simple solution is to bring markers and paper to class and draw when teachers go on a rant. I have used schools boringness against it. I normally hate everything i do but i actually kind of like these....














I will post my demented dollhouse crime scene photos later.

Oh no, run for your lifes! Creed is Back!

Mega Mega bad news! Creed is reuniting!

http://www.fmqb.com/article.asp?id=1311450&spid=1314

Thats right everyones least favorite, Eddie Vedder copying, ultra shitty, post grunge "christians" are back to distroy the world!

What if Creed opened for Nickelback? That would be like the worst show ever, like i'd rather eat the shit that comes out when you pop zits then go to that show.

Oh yeah, GodSmack and Puddle of Mudd suck to. Get your own sound uncreative douchebags.

OMG OMG OMG OMG

OMG I AM GOING TO SEE PEARL JAM IN AUGUST OMG I ACTUALLY GOT TICKETS OMG.

Sonic Youth and Green Day are also coming but thanks to ticketbastard i can only afford one of them. Ticketmaster is such a dick I mean convenience charges are probably as convenient as an ice cream truck falling on your head during a job interview. It also takes like 20 minutes for them to find tickets.

BUT OMG I JUST BARLEY GOT THE TICKETS THEY ARE GOING TO LOOK LIKE ANTS FROM WERE I AM SITTING BUT I DONT CARE.

Also the swine flu is apparently going to kill us all. I actually know someone who had it but that person didn't die. WOW.

Grunge is dead

I got this new book called Grunge Is dead. It has interviews with like every grunge star alive, except for Chris Cornell because his balls dropped off. And Courtney Love because no one takes her seriously as a musician. But like other then that its great. I haven't actually read much of it yet though.

I am in Wisconsin. In Wisconsin all the stores close at like 5. They also think they have to add meat to everything they serve in a restaurant. But on the brighter side there are more hills and stuff. Hills are cool.

The biggest problem with being on vacation is that there is no food in the hotel room because your supposed to eat out. Funny thing is if we were to eat out any time anyone got hungry we'd just be living at the restaurant.

I am off to read the book. I shall post details for the non exsisting people who read this blog later.

The day seattle died.

Most people with any knowledge in rock music know that today in 1994 Kurt Cobain died. And grunge fans know that today is the estimated day of Layne Staley’s death.


Kurt was found dead on April 8th 1994 in his greenhouse with a bullet to his head. Autopsy reports concluded Kurt died on the 5th. Kurt, who had battled drug addiction, other health issues, depression, and the pressures of being a rock star, death was ruled a suicide. Although some fans believe he was murdered the chances are very slim because Kurt had previously attempted suicide in Rome about a month before and he had also discussed his suicidal urges in interviews and in song lyrics.. It should also be noted that most insurance companies do not pay for suicides. Cobain, like fellow rock stars Jimi Hendrix, Jim Morrison, and Janis Joplin was 27.The sound of Nirvana brought a revolutionary change to rock music and brought it back to the raw basics. Nirvana, like most grunge bands was influenced by both punk rock and heavy metal. Nirvana helped bring grunge into the mainstream along with bands like Soundgarden and Alice In Chains.
The primary influences of Nirvana included The Pixies, Sonic Youth, Mudhoney, Wipers, and Meat Puppets. Kurt Cobains cynical sense of humor and angry, yet gentile and artistic personality made him an unwilling spokesman for angst teens of generation X.






Perhaps more even tragic is Layne Staley of Alice In Chains, who was found dead two weeks after his estimated death on April 20th 2002. Staley was surrounded by drug paraphernalia and had battled with drug addiction for years. His death was estimated to be on the 5th. According to friends and family Layne had isolated himself due to his drug addiction to the point where one would throw rocks at his door and he still wouldn’t open it. The death of his former girlfriend Demri, who also died of drug related causes, in 1996 had hurt Layne beyond words. Laynes body was not discovered until an unidentified person placed a call with 911 to say "She hadn't heard from him in about two weeks”. After 1997 Layne hid from the spotlight probably due to his drug addiction. When he was found the 6 foot tall Staley weighted only 86 pounds because of malnourishment. In Layne’s last interview held in 2002 he said

“"This fucking drug use is like the insulin a diabetic needs to survive," he said. "I'm not using drugs to get high like many people think. I know I made a big mistake when I started using this shit. It's a very difficult thing to explain.”

He also said that the pain from drug addiction is unbearable and that "I did crack and heroin for years. I never wanted to end my life this way. I know I have no chance. It's too late. I never wanted [the public's] thumbs' up about this fucking drug use.”

However it should be noted that the lady who interviewed him is actually full of bullshit so she may have twisted the words around. I know this because Layne’s family and friends all said her book was full of bullshit. Even if she made it up it is still known that Layne urged fans NOT to use heroin and said in a rolling stone interview that
“I didn't want my fans to think that heroin was cool. But then I've had fans come up to me and give me the thumbs up, telling me they're high. That's exactly what I didn't want to happen."”

Alice in Chains provided a more metal influenced grunge sound then Nirvana. And while lumped into the grunge scene Alice In Chains considered themselves a metal band. Their most successful album Dirt had heavy guitar riffs but lyrics touching on very personal matters. Layne’s powerful voice made Alice In Chains’ music heavy yet beautiful. Layne was described by his friends as a caring and funny person.






Both artists provided an influential voice in what became grunge and the music of the early 90s.

Screw you Lars...

One of the stupid things I hear a lot is that free online radio sites such as last.fm make the music industry loose cash. In reality I (and millions of others) have discovered many new artists due to last.fm. When I like a song I buy it on a cd or from itunes so I can have it on my ipod. So last.fm making people from some countries pay is going to have the music industry loose money. Here I have calculated about how much US dollars I have spent on music I found though last.fm. It may not be a lot but im sure most frequent users have the same experience as me. Here is an example of why music being made available freely helps everyone. The music fans, the artists, the itunes fat cats, the independent record stores, the fat cat chain stores etc.



Babes in Toyland
Songs Purchased-1
Total Cost-1.00

Blind Melon
Songs Purchased-4
Cds Purchased-1*
Total Cost-4.00

Butthole Surfers
Songs Purchased-2
Total Cost-2.00

Desaparecidos
Songs Purchased-5
Total Cost-5.00

Dinosaur Jr.
Songs Purchased-1
Total Cost-1.00

Eddie Vedder
Cds Purchased-1^
Total Cost-13.00?

Hole
Cds Purchased-1*
Songs purchased-9
Total Cost-9.00

L7
Songs Purchased-1
Total Cost-1.00

Mad Season
Songs Purchased-4
Cds Purchased-1*
Total Cost-4.00

Meat Puppets
Cds Purchased-1^
Songs Purchased-6
Total Cost-25.00?

Minutemen
Songs Purchased-3
Total Cost-3.00

Mother Love Bone
Cds Purchased-1
Total Cost-10.00

Mudhoney
Cds Purchased-1
Songs Purchased-5
Total Cost-21.00

Nick Drake
Songs Purchased-5
Total Cost-5.00

Screaming Trees
Cds Purchased-2*^
Songs Purchased-3
Total Cost-13.00?

Sebadoh
Cds Purchased-1^
Songs Purchased-3
Total Cost-15.00?

Sonic Youth
Cds Purchased-1^
Songs Purchased-2
Total Cost-11.00?

Soundgarden
Cds Purchased-4*
Songs Purchased-5
Total Cost-34.00?

The Vaselines
Songs Purchased-3
Total Cost-3.00

Violent Femmes
Cds Purchased-1^
Songs Purchased-3
Total Cost-14.00?



So in total thanks to last fm I have…

Bought
63 songs and one album from itunes
Around Ten albums

Spent
about 108.00 on albums
About 75.00 of that money went to independent/local cd stores
Spent about 73.60 on itunes

Discovered 20 new artists.

Giving the music industry in total 256.60 bucks more then I would without last.fm

And plan on buying at least six more full albums

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Note-Total cost doesn’t include stuff I haven’t bought yet

*These include songs/cds I am going to buy next time I see them at a store.

?cost is estimated

^bought from resale/local stores, multiple means I bought multiple.

So i would like to say fuck you to the folks in the RIAA, who control last fm, and Metallica (who do have some cool songs though, too bad they are losing cash because i cant play them on last fm).

Thank you for reading my boring numbers,i honestly dont like numbers because frankly i feel there are to many of them. But i guess they work well when trying to get your point across.


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Ok now on a lighter note look at this

http://www.nin.com/pub/strobelight/

Chris Cornell got OWNED by Trent Reznor.

Lets take time to honor someone who isnt honored as much as they sould be.

On yesterdays date (ok two days ago its 12:30 am) in 1990 Mother Love Bone frontman Andrew Wood died of a heroin overdose/Cerebral hemorrhage. He had spend 3 days in a coma before his family decided to switch it off. He was only 24.

If you have not heard of Mother Love Bone then your in the majority. Two of the members of Mother Love Bone did eventually join Pearl Jam, which you guys have heard of. Andy died only shortly before the realise of Mother Loves Bones first full album. While Mother Love Bone was a Seattle band, they had a somewhat glam/hard rock sound to them. Andrew has been compared to Robert Plant, Freddie Mercury and Axl Rose (minus anger issues, no offense to all you Axl fans out there). Andy was influenced by bands including Elton John, Queen, Aerosmith, and Kiss. Before he was in Mother Love Bone he even played for a band called Malfunkshun, and they wore white face paint. For a "grunge" star he apperantly had a lot of energy and charisma. He was considered to be the stand up comic of the seattle scene. The band definatly had the potential to be very sucsessful.

Sadly along with talent often comes problems. Andrew had been struggling with drugs sense he was a teen. And probably knew he was going to die young. This was evadent in many of his lyrics. ("I been talking to my alter it says life is what you make it
And if you make it death well rest your soul away, away, away") This eventually killed him.

Many other seattle musicians honored him. The Alice in Chains song "would" is about him, and the band Temple of the Dog, including Chris Cornell of soundgarden as the lead vocalist was formed in his honor.










temple of the dog (Eddie Vedder sings in this to, the video is stupid though too bad)


Moral of story-If you plan on not dieing then dont mess around with hard drugs.

My Brother the Cow.....

So my moms boyfriend isn't fond of spending money on stuff so instead he takes the cds out from the library,burns them into itunes and returns them. The library where i live only has like opera cds and i kept telling him that and he didnt belive me. So he was like "I can find any cd you want from a library" so i gave him cds i thought he'd never find.

Mudhoney-My Brother the Cow
Mother Love Bone-S/T
The Vaselines-The Way of The Vaselines

And then he found them all, what the fuck. He also found this sleepless in seattle thing like a grunge music completmentory. So now i have bands on my ipod i didn't even know exsisted. But i finally got to hear the band Andrew Wood was in before MLB (Malfunkshun).

So the past few days had been interisting socially at school. First when i was whereing my Alice In Chains shirt this dude walks up to me and screams "YEAH ALICE IN CHAINS" and gives the metal sign. Then we are in the computer lab and these guys keep bugging me,like just going up to my keyboard and typing jibberish. So i told them i was a lesbain so they'd leave me alone but that didnt work because they were like "haha vagina hahahaha" so i was like "im not a lesbain i just told you that so you'd leave me alone" then everyone took each others binders and hit each other with them. i think we lost our computer lab privelages.

Stupid metal beards.

I have contacts now, they are cool. Exsept for the contact people wont give me any more free eye drops because they are cheap ass dickweeds.

anyway here are some things i did NOT do in the past few weeks....

1.Stick gum on Chris Cornells face in a waiting room magizene.

2.Go six days without showering.

3.Spend 37 bucks on markers.

4.Break the promise i made to myself that i wouldn't buy a Soundgarden cd at a chain store because I am mad at Chris Cornell.

5.Ask someone to get like 10 cds worth of underground grunge/alternative songs for me in a way that i dont know is legal.

6.Spit inside on the floor several times.

7.Put hand sanitizer in my hair because i didn't feel like washing it.

8.go throgh like 200 peices of gum in one week

9.Not do everyday things like answer the door or phone because i was to lazy to get up.

10.Used the phrase Douche Bag thousends of times in the past few days.

Those are all immature,inresponable,rude,strange and innapporate things to do.

I did however get moved into slow math and it is so easy and i love it. The only problem is as soon as i got used to it they told me i will go back to normal math next year so i can spend like 3 hours on math every night. But out of the like 20 kids only like seven are left in the normal math class because the teachers suck so much.

I also just relized that technicly Alice In Chains and Soundgarden are metal bands which technicly makes me a regular metal listener and that is actually kind of a problem because i have never really got alot of things about metal like why metalheads always have weird beards or why they need so many subgenres.

I mean i'm all for dressing weird and stuff but the beards metal heads/bands have are ridiculas.






I mean that is really unnessasary. The only, i repet ONLY person who can pull off a goatee is Layne Staley and he is dead.



So tomorrow we have no school because of some polish dude with horses or something yay.

Its always sad to see a gifted musician sell out.

Obviously the vast majority of songs receiving airplay are completely unoriginal commericalized music made solely for the intent of profit rather then artistic expression. So obviously if i was to get upset every time i heard commericalized crap music i would have already killed myself by now. Of course its natural for me to be upset when i see a musician i find gifted and/or who's work i admire get sucked in to the contemporary pop scene. Luckily for me most of my favorite bands are anti sell outs. Whether its Pearl Jam suing Ticketmaster or Nirvana intentionally making a less radio friendly follow up to Nevermind my thoughts on bands I like's actions regarding corporations and such are normally "Cool" or "YEAH! GO TAKE THOSE TICKETMASTER/RIAA/CLEAR CHANNEL MOTHERFUCKERS DOWN!" (it rarely works unfortunately.)

Unfortunately this is far from the situation of Ex.Soundgaden/Audioslave front man Chris i think im a fucking r&b singer now Cornell. He is working with timberlund or
whatever the guy who makes Justin Timberlakes albums is named. When i first heard this i didnt know who timberlund was but it sounded bad. At the time i just though "oh well lets remember his work in soundgarden/temple of the dog." Nice optimistic thought, that will work right? No.

Now whenever i try to watch a Pearl Jam video on YouTube or look up an Alice In Chains song lyric i get a big advertisement with a face that is only recognizable as Chris Cornell because of his stupid mustache(honestly i hate that mustache). It is like "LISTEN TO CHRIS CORNELLS SHIT NEW SONG HERE YOU KNOW BECAUSE PEOPLE WHO ARE LOOKING UP ALICE IN CHAINS JUST LIKE TIMBERLUND AND STUFF!!!" its like a big in your face thing. So I decided to do myself a favor and not listen to it. That worked for about a month or so.

See traditionally you have to listen to something before you announce it as shit. Because if i said it sucks and someone used the classic "have you even heard it?" comeback i would have had to lie. So i listened to it for about 10 seconds

AHHH WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS SHIT THIS IS WORSE THEN I THOUGHT HE IS LIKE JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE OR SOMETHING NOW!

I mean i'm all for musical experimentation and stuff. I'm ok with the fact that former Bikini Kill singer Kathleen Hanna is in some disco feminist electronic punk band now. I enjoyed Eddie Vedders more folky soundtrack for Into The Wild. Fuck im even starting to gain most of the respect back that i lost for Jerry Cantrell when i saw a video of him playing with Nickelback.But this is just shit, Its sad really. It dosn't sound like him.

So i just needed to get that out, on a lighter note....

Happy birthday to Kurt Cobain, he'd be 42. He's up celebrating his birthday with Layne Staley,John Lennon,Andy Wood and Elliott Smith (who has forgiven him for Courtney love chasing his friend down an alley or whatever).

Stop it with this fucking twilight stuff.

The author failed to keep her religious and political views out of the books. In the 4th book the chick gets pregnant with a half-vampire child that nearly kills her during the pregnancy, but she refuses to have an abortion.

Bella never considers doing anything with her life, the only thing she wants to do is Edward and his house chores. Ok so they have one female character that is a tool that would be ok because in real life many people are tools. To bad all the female characters are tools. None of them have independent personalities. Rosalies life is ruined because she dosnt have a kid,Esme does absolutely nothing, Alice is a bimbo etc. And all of them have boyfriends who are stronger and more capable of everything then them.

The Edward dude is also emotionally abusive. Edward is this strong rich jerky dude with a big ego and he treats his girlfriend like shit and controls her and she thinks its attractive. He tells Bella that she is irresistible so he cant control himself and if he does something bad its her fault. She isn’t with him for 3 months and she tries to kill herself. Whenever Bella gets in trouble Edward saves her. She has no way to defend herself from anything.
Now please remember that most kids who read twilight are around 8-15. You probably know how insecure and obsessive middle school aged kids can be. Here are some examples on how twilight feeds on this…(thanks to urban dictionary)

“Edward Cullen:
1. a walking orgasm. yumm :]
2. only the sexiest man ever
3. major hottie
4. my boyfriend
omg, it's Edward Cullen! *faints* “

“That vampire that dazzles people. All the guys are jelous of him, and all the girls are obbsesed with him. He sets an extremly high expectation for girls looking for guys. “

“the most awesome person ever! Sexiest Vampire alive... well, er existing. The love of my life! Sweet, sensitive, kind, hott, and beyond perfection!
Every woman alive should be in love with Edward Cullen! “


Hmmm really makes you wonder what kind of role models 10 year olds have….

I have already explained how these people are boring so now i have to explain why they also have low self esteem.

Arrogant sons of bitches run the world. Of course this isn't just an adult thing.When people think of arrogant teens they think of the popular ditz who gets all the boys/girls. Thats actually not a description that fits most kids with big egos. One thing i think people need to know that ego and self esteem are two different things. I know you hear "oh those kids who are popular are insecure." They probably are, most teenagers are. There is another group of people who are probably insecure. Those kids who are obsessed over their grades, why? because they must think they need to have As to assure themselves they are good.

Yesterday one of my teachers read a quote that said something like "Do not rest until your good is better and your better is best." They asked us what we thought the quote meant and I said "it means you should never just be happy with yourself and you should just keep obsessing over all your flaws." Apparently that was a negative interpretation but that is actually a literal interpretation of it.

I have a friend who does kind of poorly in school, actually she kind of sucks at getting good grades and stuff. But socially she is not someone to mess with. When a guy told her she had no tits she choked him and his face turned red, then she let go of him and said "please dont do that". Today at lunch someone else said something rude to her and she kicked him in the balls. That might be called mean but i call it rebelling against gender roles. That is not something someone with no passion or self esteem would do. Someone with no self esteem would just stuff their bras the next day. But according to my teachers people who dont do well in school have no passion or self esteem. I dont really understand that because i think people with low self esteem are the ones who think they needs a certain GPA to be successful. Now i have nothing against people who want to get into a good college to LEARN but most of those people who want to get into Harvard or Yale want to because it leads to a high paying job. Most of the people who are stereotypical nerds who love learning actually dont do very well in classes.

I am also well aware that my last four or so rants have been about this so if the imaginary people who read my blog are getting sick of it they will be happy to know my next rant will probably be about how their should be more girls in rock music or how pot should be legal or another one about how bad music is now.

What we can learn from MLK

So we are not supposed to do things that pisses the goverment off. You know if Marten Luther King followed that rule we'd probably still have legal segregation? Now we honor him with a holiday but the goverment really wasnt to fond of him in the 60s. Now if we never broke the rules...

Women whouldn't be able to vote
We'd be a monarcy
Blacks whouldn't be able to vote
Children whould be legally working full time in sweatshops in the US
Rock and Roll whould be illegil
Booze whould be illegil
We'd all be living in briton or something.
etc.

oh look and now the goverment is GLAD MLK broke the rules because the goverment actually relised that in the 60s they where being total dicks so they actually honered him with a holiday. So if we never REBELLED the world whould be even more of an unfair shithole.