lots of stuff

My computer has been acting really strange lately, it keeps getting these viruses. My antivirus sucks so i cant remove some of them and it has like 300 cookies and is really slow.i got a new one but i have no idea how to set it up and i don't know how to get my itunes into it. My dad at least figured how to get this one temporarily working.

For the first time in my life i am actually showing some interest in boys. I actually thought i was a lesbian for a while in 7th grade but then i realized i dont like chicks ether. Sadly the guys at my school are mostly douchy and some of them still havn't finished puberty (They are like 15 wtf is taking them so long). I dont think they like me either because when they act douchy i get irritated with them and i dont look like Megan Fox who is apparently like a shrine for teenage boys who are just starting to grow facial hair.

Most of the rocker kids or the artsy kids are juniors and seniors and they smoke before and after school. I know this because when i take the bus i see a bunch of people with like ramones shirts and mohawks or guys with long hair smoking when i am walking to where to bus stops. My friend (or maybe i can refer to her as an ex friend because its impossible to keep in touch with people who you don't have classes/lunch with at my school because its so freaking big) hangs out with them even though she overdoes the whole skater thing, listens to normal pop music, and is convinced she can't wear skirts because it will make her unfeminist or something. I In a way i wish i was older but i am actually scared to death of Junior year with all the tests and stuff. The annoying thing is last year there were some cool sophomores and they told me they liked my AIC shirt and stuff but this year the kids are still like they where last year. I guess my grade is just boring.

Apparently we are supposed to start thinking of colleges now which is strange because that is kind of supposed to be a junior year thing,actually last year they told us to think about in. If i remember right they actually asked me what college i want to go to in 7th grade and i was just like "WTF IM NOT EVEN IN HIGH SCHOOL YET!" i bet by the time my generation is having kids they will have have like a college and career guy at the ultrasound thingy saying like "Hmm, i think this looks like a Harvard baby. Ok next is baby #20194572, well this baby should definitely look into applying for university of Wisconsin. Ok and baby number #20194573, well i hate to break it to you ma'am but your baby looks kind of dim, at best he will be able to get into a community college." Its like everyone wants genious babys and you see all this advertisements for things like teaching a 2 year old how to read. My moms sisters were over a couple of months ago and they have like 2-11 year olds and they where like "Oh Laura are your kids on the honor role? Its like we havn't even gotten our my child is an honor student bumper stickers yet its ridiculous. Oh Julie i'm so glad your sending your kids to a catholic school because if they go to a public school they will do drugs and evil things like that." Honestly its so stupid. I feel like i am rebelling against my social class/suburban household just by typing "dont" instead of "don't".

Thats all i feel like typing. 3 day weekend this week so im going to clean out my backpack and go though useless junk i forgot i had in my room.

Schools back

So far none of my teachers seem like complete douche bags actually. Of course you need to give them time before you decide. Its going ok so far, but i forgot my locker combination so i have to carry everything in my back pack and i look like a moron with it. I seem a little more comfortable with myself though, im not really scared of talking to people i don't know very well as much as i was last year. I really hate passing periods though because everyone is crashing into you and shoving you and stuff. That always makes me really nervous.

Anyways, i saw Pearl Jam on the 23rd, which was defiantly one of the best parts of my summer. I tryed to take videos but they looked like ants from where i was and the sound quality on my camera sucks. In fact it said to audio recordings on my ticket so i just did it to see if anyone noticed (no one did). But it was really fun and they where great. I also spend last weekend in Madison Wisconsin, which is defiantly one of the best places in the Midwest. I actually found a good cd store which had some stuff like Babes In Toyland and L7. Then the guy working at the place asked me if i remembered some video from like 1991. I guess i look 30 something to him, maybe its because i was wearing my glasses which makes me look more mature.

But i have decided i need to make another list. I dont know if anyone else gets this but you know that feeling when you hear a song that for some reason makes you like drop what your thinking about and your stomach just feels like its going to sink? Like they are normally sad songs but not always, that just suddenly change your mood. I am going to make a list of songs that do that to me because im stuck at my dads house and there is nothing better to do here.

God Am-Alice In Chains
Backwater-Meat Puppets
You know your Right-Nirvana
Color Bars-Elliott Smith
I believe in symmetry-Bright Eyes
Pennyroyal Tea-Nirvana
Pretty Noose-Soundgarden
Yellow Ledbetter-Pearl Jam
Chloe Dancer/Crown of Thorns-Mother Love Bone
Desecration Smile-Red Hot Chili Peppers
Society-Eddie Vedder
Nutshell-Alice In Chains
Brother-Alice In Chains
Long Gone Day-Mad Season
A fond Farewell-Elliott Smith
Sludge Factory- Alice In Chains
Old Age-Nirvana
Doll Parts-Hole
No Ceiling-Eddie Vedder
Man of Golden Words-Mother Love Bone
Junk Bond Trader-Elliott Smith
Got me Wrong-Alice In Chains
Butterfly-Screaming Trees
Losing my Religion-R.E.M
St Ives Heaven-Elliott Smith
It all Dies anyways-The Gits
Pretty (Ugly Before)-Elliott Smith
Stargazer-Mother Love Bone
Over the Hills and Far Away-Led Zeppelin
Galaxie-Blind Melon
Angel in the Snow-Elliott Smith
Dollar Bill-Screaming Trees
Danny Callahan-Conor Oberst
Coming Up Roses-Elliott Smith
And the Wind Crys Mary-Jimi Hendrix
Down in A Hole-Alice In Chains

And there are more but im forgetting them. So im just wondering if those songs do that to other people, or any songs for that matter.